In love with my best bud ( Gay,Bi,Curious? )

My name is Dave, I am 15 years old, I live in the seaside town of Blackpool in the North of England. I am Bisexual probably Gay and this is my Diary.

Thursday 17th Feb 2011
Ok here we go for my first entry what should I say ?
I am not good in the mornings, and I mean not good. Mum wakens me my two younger brothers and my sister at 7.30am each morning for school, on a really good day I am out of my bed for 8am, I just can’t function until I have been awake for at least half an hour, I have tried but it is just impossible to get my feet on the ground before 8 and some times as late as 8.30, This causes me more grief with my mother than all my other problems put together, Tonight I will be sleeping in a damp bed again after the lunatic ( My Mother ) threw a pot of water over me to get me up this morning, and this is certainly not the first time she has done that.

Also today has been a very uncomfortable day because after she half drowned me, in my rush to get ready for school, I pulled on a pair of my younger brothers boxers from my drawer, I should have noticed as I was putting them on but she was coming up the stairs again, and I did not want to get caught naked, so in a hurry I pulled on the boxers, So all day at school my balls have been crushed and my thighs strangled why did the stupid woman put his boxers in my drawer?, Not only that but as my cock has been up and down most of the day as usual, My young brother will have to wear boxers previously pre cum stained by his older pervert of a brother. Oh well it’s wank timre Billy is getting it tonight, good night.

Friday 18th feb 2011
Arghhhh I hate this house honestly I wish I had been adopted out at birth, I just walked in the door and she started on me about the state of my bed room, I walked up the stair and got a shock, My bed and my P.C are on the landing, no sheets no bedding, and all the cables from my P.C are gone.
Like a raving lunatic, she comes up the stairs behind me shouting and bawling, that if I don’t clean up my bedroom, then I will have no bedding to sleep in tonight and cant use my P.C until the mess is sorted out.

That is my space, she has no right to invade it. Ok I do admit even I was surprised by the amount of rubbish under my bed, sweet wrappers ,paper ,dried up socks, dirty boxers etc, But if she was a proper Mum then she would tidy up more often, None of my friends have to tidy their rooms, that’s what real mothers do for f**k sake, It has taken me over four hours of hard labour to get her approval, and get my bedding and cables back, It is not my fault that they bought the smallest house they could find and cram us in like rats in a cage, Not sure if this is a proper diary, but hey who is going to read it?. If you are get off my FU**KING P.C NOW.

Saturday 19th Feb 2011
Got up about 11am, had my breakfast, her face was tripping her again AS USUAL, Don’t think my Dad came home last night, maybe he was scared he would have to tidy their room, honestly it has more rubbish in it than mine did, She thinks he is having an affair, I would not blame him if he is, all she does is moan all the time. I hope he moves out I will go with him.

Billy came to the house about one, Oh better explain who Billy is he is my best friend, well he is even more than that, he is the brother I wish I had, my life would be ten times worse than it is now if I did not have Billy in it, he is 100% cool and sexy as hell, although he does not know that I think of him like that, I tell him at least twice a day that he is a wanker or prick, and usually right after I say it I get an image in my head of him wanking his prick, ( well I thought it was funny )
I knew he was coming so I made sure that I was only in my boxers, when he came in, I knew Mum would just let him in and send him up to my room.

He started singing the song from the feebreeze advert, cheeky cunt even asked where the carpet had come from he said he had never seen it before, he looked as sexy as ever, he had on his grey Nike joggers I like him in those you can see his cock bounce about when he walks, I had to pull on a pair of jeans fast, I was getting a semi just looking at his bulge. I finished getting dressed and we went out to meet up with the rest of the gang, Saturday is drinking night, we all chip in what we have ,get some beers and a bit of hash ( cannabis ), I never realy drunk much , but it gives me the chance to act drunker, and get a little touchy feely with him, Not his cock or anything, just sort of cuddle him, even that turns me on, Ok time for a wank then sleep, Going with Billy to Manchester Tomorrow, Just the two of us.

Monday 21st Feb 2011
Never wrote anything yesterday, Went through to Manchester with Billy for the day to his Gran and Grandads house, Was a good day, his grand parents took us out for a carvery lunch to this posh pub, Then we went to visit his Aunt, it might not sound like a great day out but it was, and of course Billy had a reason to go visiting half his family, it is his Birthday on Wednesday and he was on a present hunt, and it worked he got £100 from his grand parents, then another £30 from his Aunt.

Then instead of us getting the train home as planned, his Aunt drove us home, stopping off at a Chinese restaurant on the way home she bought us a meal, it was after 11pm before I got home full to the brim with food.

Mum is not talking to Dad or anyone else for that matter, He said he is not having an affair, that he had been playing cards with friends on Friday night, that’s why he never came home, he said the game lasted all night.
I think that she was upset that I had not been in all day, her only words to me where
“I hope your not hungry as your dinner is in the dog” Thank god I thought, I could not even manage eating a nut I was that full, well unless it was Billy of course.

Mum was on the war path again this morning, 7.15 am I had the Duvet pulled off me and the bedroom window got opened full to let out the smell of my feet, and the garlic from my breath from my Chinese meal last night, Thank God I was lying on my belly, or she would have saw just how much my willy has grown since she last washed it I was in full morning glory, I took the hint and for the first time in a long while was out the door before 8.30am,

Tuesday 22nd Feb 2011
That f**king lunatic done it again this morning, soaked in my bed, no wonder I always have a cold, I am sure there must be a law against that I could probably get her arrested for cruelty or something, she probably even saw my boner as I was asleep on my back when I got flooded, that’s probably incest. Dad got it last night again as well, he never came in till just after 10pm, he had been drinking and she went off on one, I heard plates smashing and loads of arguing, she was shouting “go and live with the whore and get out of my life” I prayed half the night that he would, so I could go with him. But I know he won’t because he loves her, F**k only knows why because she hates both him and me.

I have decided that I am not going to School tomorrow, it is Billy’s Birthday he will turn the Big 16, so we are going in to the town as he wants to buy some clothes with his birthday money, he has promised to buy me lunch at a nice place, I have no money to buy him a present, but I have got him a card, I wrote in it.

To the best mate in the world, hope you have a brilliant day. I wanted to put Love Dave but that’s just too gay, so I wrote Your bud Dave x. I wonder what he will ay when he sees the kiss.

Wednesday 23rd Feb 2011
Not even the bitch could spoil today, I went to sleep early last night ( well after a double wank) to make sure I did not get a soaking again this morning, both sides of my mattress are damp now, I had to put towels under my sheet or I would have been stuck to the bed with ice this morning, it is Baltic in this house as we don’t have central heating like most people, she says we cant afford to use electric heaters in our rooms because electricity costs too much and is dangerous, So almost as soon as she woke me up this morning, I was up got showered ( Just incase Billy wants a birthday shag, ok wishful thinking, but a guy can wish ) I dressed and was down in the kitchen even before Dad had left for work,
He looked quite happy going to work I don’t normally see him till night time if at all.

I went to Billy’s house, Mmmmmm he was only wearing boxers when he answered the door to me, oh the luxury of central heating, He was home alone, his parents and sister were away to work.

I gave him his birthday card he read it and put it on the dresser beside his bed, then went for a shower, When he was in the shower I checked his internet history, but nothing at all gay showed up but no porn either? I know that is suspicious because I know for certain he checks out porn.

He came back to the bedroom with a towel wrapped around him and his boxers in his hand, he then finished drying off in front of me, I have saw him naked loads of times but I am sure his cock and balls are growing faster than mine, He got dressed then we then headed in to Manchester on the Train, we first went to JJB Sports on Market Street and he bought the new Nike Air max go trainers for £75 2 tee shirts £20 each and two pairs of Joggers for £58, well everything 1p less than the prices I~ have quoted, why do they do the £19.99 thing who wants a penny back?.

Then he bought both of us £10 credit for our phones, ( Yes free texts again and out going calls, for the first time in 3 weeks) after that we decided against a posh pub meal, and opted for KFC, on the way back to the train station he bought test drive 2 for his Xbox another £24.99, and he still had over £40 left, that’s on top of the presents he got from his Mum Dad and sister, lucky dog got far more for his Birthday than I got for Christmas. We went back to his house and played Test Drive 2 for a couple of hours, then I went home and pretended I was just home from School, I quickly ate my dinner, then went back to Billy’s house to get him before going down the mile, just before we left his house he asked if I had forgotten something? Puzzled I did not know what he meant, He picked up the Birthday Card I had given him and said “You owe me one kiss”. What an opportunity I went for his lips, but he pushed me off pulled out his cock and said if it’s only one kiss I want it here, I honestly would have but as I went to kiss it he pulled his joggers back up and said . Later Gay Boy, oh how I wish.

Thursday 24th Feb 2011
Dad woke me up this morning that’s a first, he told me that I had to get up and make sure my younger brothers and sister got breakfast and off to School, he told me that Mum has gone to Gran’s for a rest ( A rest from what she sits in the house all day ?)
So I was in charge until either him or her came home, he gave me £20 and said if Mum was not home when we got in from school, I was to buy dinner from the Chippy
And stay in until he got home. I was looking forward to a chip shop dinner,
but the bitch was there when I got home from school, how sad she is so horrible she even stops her children from getting a rare treat a takeaway meal,

Dad came home about 8pm things where pretty calm but my hopes of being £20 rich did not last long when he came to my room to claim it, 2 minutes later the front door of the house slammed as Dad went out ,then I heard a crash and smashing from the kitchen, probably another few plates smashed, if this carries on she will have to put our dinner straight on to the table, the woman is a FU**ING NUTTER.

Friday 25th Feb 2011
This is honestly a nut house I live in, Someone should call Social Services and save us all, I honestly I want to run away and never come back but if I did my brothers and sister would cop it from her, What a night last night was, She was on the vodka and got very drunk, she kept calling Dad screaming at him down the phone, calling him allsorts of names. Then the music went up full blast, Neil Diamond fucking sweet Caroline the song my dad sings to her when he is drunk, no doubt you now know mums name, She must have repeated it a hundred times, then I got woke up with dads car alarm going off at 1.43 am this morning, the Looney had smashed the windscreen on his car, I got her inside and persuaded her to go to bed, I was back in bed and just drifting off to sleep, when I was woken again, this time with the Police almost battering the door down.

I had to open the door to them and explain what had happened, I told lies saying that I got woke up with the car alarm going off and that some vandals must have smashed Dads window, They told me someone had called them and told them my mum had done it, and insisted I got her out of bed, Thankfully I had credit on my phone ( Thank You Billy) because Dad would not have answered a call from home or Mum’s mobile, I told him what was happening, he arrived by Taxi about 15 minutes latter and got it all sorted with the Police. None of us went to school today we all slept in. Mum looks like shit seriously hungover, and dad once again has not came home, And to make things worse I was supposed to stay over at Billy’s house tonight, but could not go, I can’t leave my youngsters with that bam pot.

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