Why did I?

My body trembles
releasing my tears
This pain in my heart
been cutting for years
Why did you leave me?
Why did I let you?
Why didn’t I fight,
after all that we went through?
I promised I’d die for you
Instead I just cried for you.
I just walked away
when I should have been there for you,
my heart was conflicted
with no ideas what to do.

I’m sorry I ran at a time you most needed me
at a time in our lives when it should have been plain to see.
I missed all the clues, the warnings and bells
and ever since then I’ve been living this hell.
Now the years have gone by
and they haven’t been kind
each waking moment
it’s you on my mind.
I still look at your picture with tears in my eyes
wanting so badly to feel you
wanting so badly to die.

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