Weeks and weeks went by and I was doing so so good with my therapy and stuff. I got to hear from Mason a couple of times a week and I got to talk to mom a few times a week. It got to where I knew when Mason was going to call me and I got so so excited to hear from him. If he didn’t call me, he would be on a call or at his other job where he’s not allowed to have his phone with him and he worked a lot, and I mean a lot a lot. I only knew when he was working as a paramedic because when I called him while he was working he not only answered, but I could hear the walkie thing. He even came and saw me at the hospital when he wasn’t working which wasn’t all of the time which I hated because I loved him. Sometimes if he was working as a paramedic, I would see him even more depending on if he brought someone to my hospital or not. I was shocked when I saw him walk in and come right to me in uniform with his radio and everything one day. And what I loved more than anything else in this world, was that my doctors loved him, they told me that he was very, very therapeutic for me, so they actually asked him to try and stop by and see me more often. I still had my moments where I would be depressed and sad and they noticed that I would change after I saw Mason. I would be happy and excited and I wouldn’t be able to stop smiling and they noticed that. I missed him, I missed him all the time because I was still madly in love with him, that and because I was way more attracted to him physically than I ever was!

Hearing from him was like, the biggest highlight of my day but it wasn’t every day since he worked part time as a nurse in the emergency room of the hospital I went to first. I realized that I was actually happy again, I was feeling good about myself again, I didn’t feel worthless anymore because I had someone other than my mom and siblings that needed me, and the best part of that was that he was like, right there all the time. One day they told me that I had come a long long way, so they sent me to another therapist. I got to stay with my friends and stay in my room, but I was seeing a different therapist. I won’t lie, I was a little nervous because I heard that my next therapist was the one who said wether or not I got to go home, and I wanted to go home so I could start my life over with Mason. I did get to have a little break before I had to meet with the new therapist so it wasn’t all that bad. The best part is that if the therapist thought that I was well enough, then I only had one week left, one week, that means the three months or ninety days were almost up.

So I’m sitting in the common room hanging out with my friends when they started to ask me about Mason. They asked me why he was always just coming to see me and no one else. So I told them that he was my boyfriend I mean, he kinda wasn’t officially but he was going to be. They didn’t believe me, they started making fun of me and started saying that I was just saying that to impress them. They kept saying how they would “fuck” him, and honestly, I didn’t even know what that was. All I knew was that it had something to do with sex, yeah, I lived a very sheltered life, and sex ended up being the main subject of our conversation. They kept talking about doggy style, cowgirl, reverse cowgirl, the cat, the water fall, hot seat, pole position, face off, the pretzel, spoon and a bunch of others. I had no idea what they were even talking about like, at all and I started to feel bad because of it.

“Can I ask you guys something without you making fun of me?” I asked.

“Yeah we can.” Roberta asked.

“What do you do with all of those positions?” I asked.

“You have sex.” Gina asked.

“No I’m serious, I wanna know.” I said.

“You’re so damn innocent that I think you’re lying when you say you’ve had sex.” Roberta said.

“I think you’re still a Virgin.” Gina said.

“Hello, I was married and got pregnant remember?” I asked while I laughed.

“So was your ex husband that bad? Was sex really that bad for you?” Denice asked.

“It was ok I guess.” I said.

“Just ok?” Roberta asked.

“Well, if I have to be honest it wasn’t all that good for me, he would just get on top of me and that’s all.” I said.

“Did he just stick it in you and fuck you for a few seconds and it was over?!” Denice asked.

“Actually yeah, that’s exactly how it was. I even had to use a lot of lube so it wouldn’t hurt, we went through like, three bottles a week and they were big bottles, I’ve never had sex in any of the ways you guys are talking about, I guess it was just missionary all the time.” I said.

“Oh you poor girl, are you serious?!” My friend Becca asked.

“I swear to god, that’s how it was all the time with him, but it got worse when he started to hit me.” I said.

“Oh my god, I am so so sorry.” Denice said.

“It is what it is, it’s all over and I’m divorced from that asshole. I seriously wanna know what you guys are talking about.” I said.

“Ok, well tell you, which one do you wanna know about first?” Denice asked.

“Um, doggy.” I said.

“Ok, so doggy is when you get on your hands and knees, and depending on how tall your man is, you may have to stick your ass up so he can get inside of you. So if you’re on the bed on your hands and knees, your boy toy Mason gets on his knees and he fucks you from behind. He holds your waist or whatever and just slides his dick in and out of you like that.” She said making me feel a little horny again.

“Wow, what’s the cowgirl?” I asked.

“That’s when you have Mason lay flat on his back and you get on top of him. And instead of laying down on him, you sit up and you take his cock and you sit on it and take him inside of you.” Roberta said.

“So like, I would be making love to him?” I asked.

“Yes you would, you’d have all of the control, plus he can look at you and touch you all over your body while you ride him” Gina said.

“Reverse cowgirl, is that like, the same thing?” I asked.

“Basically, the only difference is that you’re facing away from him. But you can lay back on him and let him fuck you.” Becca said making me get really horny because it gave me a really hot visual of me and Mason!

“What about the water fall, what’s that?” I asked.

“That’s where he sits on his bed and lays back so that his head and shoulders are on the floor, and you sit on his dick and fuck him while he’s like that.” Denice said.

“Oh, cool. What’s the Cat?” I asked.

“The cat is kinda like the missionary position only Masons body is farther up and to the side of your body. You guys won’t be all chest to chest like the missionary, his chest would be by your shoulder. That one is awesome because his body is in constant contact with your clit. Mason wouldn’t be fucking you, you two would basically be rocking together.” Gina said.

“Wow, ok, what about the pole?” I asked.

“That’s like the reverse cowgirl, only Mason would have only one of his legs bent, and you would have your legs around that one, basically his leg will be between yours, and when you’re fucking him you use his leg to hold onto him. Mason would probably like that too because he gets to see himself inside of you.” Denice said.

“That one sounds like fun, what about face off?” I asked.

“That one is perfect for love making, if you wanna make love to Mason, you’ll love this one. You have him sit on the bed or in a chair so that his feet are on the ground, then you get in his lap facing him and put your knees on both sides of his body. You wrap your arms around his back and you can play with his hair and stuff. You can look in his eyes and make out with him, and instead of bouncing up and down on him, all you do is press your legs together and then relax them.” Denice said.

“I wish I would have done all of that, they all sound really really hot and really fun.” I said.

“I feel so so sorry for you, my god. Well, maybe Mason will let you do stuff like that to him.” Roberta said.

“So have you ever had sex with your new boy toy?” Becca asked.

“No.” I said.

“Do you even know what you’re doing when it comes to pleasing a man?” Roberta asked.

“I wasn’t allowed to do anything at all when I was married, I never even got to have sex in any of those positions, so no.” I said.

“Have you ever given a man a blow job?” Becca asked.

“No I haven’t, I’ve always wanted to try it because all of the girls that I know that have done it said they like it.” I said.

“Do you even know what a blow job is?” Denice asked while they all laughed at me.

“Yes I know what a blow job is.” I said while I laughed.

“What is it then?” Becca asked.

“It’s when you suck the guys dick.” I said.

“And you’ve always wanted to try that?” Roberta asked.

“Yes I have, stop making fun of me.” I said while I laughed.

“Ok, so have you ever been eaten out?” Denice asked.

“No.” I said.

“So you’ve never given a guy a blowjob and you’ve never been eaten out, and you’ve never enjoyed sex?” Gina asked.

“No I haven’t.” I said.

“You poor poor girl, I’m so so sorry.” Becca said while she hugged me.

“So when you dated Mason a long time ago, you guys didn’t have sex?” Gina asked.

“No we didn’t I mean, we dated when I was fourteen but all we ever did was make out.” I said.

“I was going to say.” Gina said.

“And you haven’t had sex with him since you’ve been back?” Denice asked while Gina was talking.

“I mean, we just started going out again just before I got here so no.” I said.

“Hun, with a man like that you really need to know what you’re doing.” Roberta said.

“I don’t think it’ll bother him that I don’t know what I’m doing.” I said.

“Maybe so, but still. He’s got to be the sexiest most handsome man that we’ve ever seen and guys that look like him, like a girl with experience.” Gina said.

“Yeah I know, but I don’t have much. My husband made me lay still and not move when we had sex so I didn’t get to do anything that I wanted to do. I didn’t get to try anything I wanted to try like, giving him a blow job.” I said.

“What would happen if you tried to do something to him?” Becca asked.

“He’d hit me. He’d either punch me or slap me over and over again, and that’s after he stopped having sex with me, he would call me a whore and a slut and told me that I disgusted him.” I said.

“What a fucking asshole!” Denice said.

“Were you even allowed to touch his dick?” Roberta asked.

“Nope, he only let me look at it, if I tried to touch it I would get in trouble.” I said.

“So he wouldn’t let you touch his dick and you never sucked him off?” Denice asked.

“Nope.” I said.

“So what did he do if he wanted to have sex?” Gina asked.

“He would just tell me that it’s time and I would have to get naked and go lay on the bed and spread my legs.” I said.

“Then what?” Roberta asked.

“He made me squirt lube on myself and rub it in, then he’d stick it in and have sex with me for a minute or so until he came in me.” I said.

“That’s it?!” Denice asked.

“Yeah that’s it.” I said while my eyes started to fill with tears, I wanted to cry.

“Aaawwww, don’t be sad, it’s ok, it’s not your fault that your husband was such a selfish prick and a fucking piece of shit.” Roberta said before she hugged me.

“Ex husband, ex. I’m not married to that abusive fucking asshole anymore.” I said not believing that I just said the f word.

“Well look, if you really are dating Mason like you say you are, you’re in for a big, big surprise. Guys like him know what they are doing in bed, but I actually kinda know him since he’s the paramedic that saved my life, so I’m pretty sure he’ll let you do whatever you want to him.” Gina said.

“You think so?” I asked.

“I’m pretty sure he will, he’ll let you see his dick, he’ll let you touch it and he’ll more than likely let you suck his dick. He looks like the kind of guy that likes getting and giving oral.” She said.

“He might know all of those positions we told you about too.” Roberta said.

“I kinda hope so, I just wish I knew what I was doing, I wish I knew how to do all of that.” I said.

“Ok, we are going to help you ok?” Becca asked.

“Ok.” I said.

“Now, you say that Mason is your boyfriend, so you really need to at least learn how to please him, if he is in fact your boyfriend.” Becca said.

“He is I swear.” I said while I laughed.

“Yeah ok we still don’t believe you, anyway, what do you think about porn?” Denice said.

“I’ve never watched porn.” I said.

“Do you know what porn is?” Gina asked.

“Kind of, I know that it’s movies where people have sex and it like, shows everything.” I said.

“It does, but it’s very very very graphic as in, you’ll see the guys cock and the girls pussy. You’ll see everything they do to each other perfectly, they don’t blur anything out.” Denice said.

“They even do close ups of the guys dick in the girls pussy, or mouth, or him licking and eating the girls pussy so it’s like, in your face pretty much.” Roberta said.

“Here is what you should do, you should watch porn, if not for any other reason, watch it so you can learn how to please your alleged boyfriend.” Denice said.

“How do I do that?” I asked.

“Wow, you poor poor sheltered girl, it’s a damn shame that a girl that’s as gorgeous and hot as you are is so so innocent.” Denice said.

“It should be a crime.” Gina said.

“You have your phone right?” Becca asked.

“Yeah.” I said.

“Do you use your browser?” Denice asked.

“Yeah I do every once in a while.” I said.

“Ok, give me your hand.” Denice said.

She took a pen out and wrote a website down on my hand.

“Ok, tonight when you’re all alone, go to this website, don’t worry it’s free, and when you get to it, click on the search bar and type blow jobs in that bar and click search, actually look up slow sensual blowjobs because they go slow and it’ll be easier to learn. Watch as many as you can so you can learn how to please the guy you claim is your boyfriend.” She said.

“Ok.” I said while I looked at my hand

“Here, I’ll write that down so you can remember that.” Roberta said before she took the pen from Denice and wrote, slow sensual blow jobs on my hand.

“Make sure you wear headphones.” Becca said.

“Ok, thanks guys.” I said while I started smiling.

“You’re excited.” Gina said.

“Well yeah, I wanna please Mason so I can keep him around, what’s not exciting about that?” I asked.

I won’t lie, I was excited about learning how to please Mason. I didn’t know if he had sex with his ex fiancé or not, but if he didn’t then I didn’t have anything to worry about. I know this will sound like, really really weird, but I really hoped that he did have sex with her. In fact, I hoped he had a lot of sex with her so he would be experienced and know what he was doing. I was married to someone who had no experience and sex really sucked because of that. I hoped Mason did have experience so he would be able to teach me a bunch of things and even have sex with me in all of the positions I learned about. And if he did have sex with his ex, I would bet that sex with him would be so so amazing! If he did, I was going to surprise him with what I was going to learn from watching porn, so I decided that I was going to do it so I could learn how to please him, sin or not. I also wanted to find out what it would be like to tease him, I heard that girls like to tease their boyfriends so bad that they wanted to have sex with them really bad. I know I know, I was committing a huge sin for just think about having sex with him before we were married and it’s a sin to watch porn. But since I already committed the biggest sin of them all by leaving the order, or apostatizing as the order put it, I was going to go to hell anyway, so I figured why not. Besides, if you were like, really really sheltered like I was all my life and you see the love of your life, and you see how much he changed into an incredibly hot and incredible sexy guy like Mason did, and you reunited with him and found out that you were still madly in love with him, you might just go for it too.

Mason was so so damn hot now, oh my good god he looked so much better than he did when we courted, and he was really really hot then! He was the cutest boy in the world remember? And now he was way way wwway hotter? I didn’t think that it was even possible for the cutest boy ever to look even better than he did when he was 18 but, boy was I wrong! So I was all like, if I already sinned and I was going to hell anyway then I might as well go all out and have sex with him right? All I needed to do was find out if he had sex with his ex fiancé first. And if he didn’t then I would behave and not have sex with him till we got married, but if he did, then yeah, I was gonna go for it for sure, I would be way dumb to not go for it. I was way way more attracted to him, more than I ever was because of his new manly yummy sexy look. So there’s that and I was still in love with him like I was so because of those two things, I just knew that I was going to make love to him before we got married, I didn’t care anymore, I mean, I was already going to hell remember? So that night I went to bed after saying good night to my friends, and since I hadn’t heard from Mason because he was at his hospital job, I thought about texting him because I just wanted to let him know that I was thinking about him. It kinda worked out because I was taking myself to school to learn how to please him that night so that meant that I got to watch as much as I could.

Me: hey gorgeous I know u r working your other job tonight and can’t call or text so I just wanted to let u know that I’m doing amazing! I’m hoping they let me out so I can start my life with u. I need to talk to u and I wanna do it in person so when I c u next we’ll talk. And don’t worry it’s not bad. Luv u always

In case you couldn’t tell, I already made my mind up that I wanted to court him again and I didn’t wanna wait. I mean, we both knew that we were still in love with each other, so I figured, why wait? Besides, I kinda knew he didn’t want to wait because he hinted to that. So, because of that, I had to educate myself, I had to because if he let me do what I’ve always wanted to do, I at least needed to know what I was doing. I found the selfie he took of himself for me with my phone and kissed it like I did every night. Then I went to my browser and went to the website that I had written on my hand. What I saw almost made me sick because I hadn’t seen anything like that before. I saw lots of naked girls and guys who were having sex and I just stared at it for a minute before I put it down and started getting ready for my bath. While I was getting ready, I realized that I was starting to like what I saw, and I started to get turned on. So I went back to my phone and looked at it again, and that’s when I started to get really really horny, like, oh my god I was getting horny! I put my phone down and I took my bath and when I got done, I didn’t dress in much clothes at all. I had a feeling that I was going to get even hornier watching the videos. I got in my bed and opened my browser and typed “slow sensual blow jobs” in the search bar, and that’s when I saw a bunch of videos that had girls that were doing exactly what I’ve always wanted to do, but never got to.

I saw this blonde girl who had platinum blonde hair like mine, only it wasn’t as long as mine, on a bed. She had a black little shirt on and a black bow in her hair. Because she had hair like mine, I had to watch that because it would be easy for me to pretend that I was watching me sucking Masons dick. I loved that the guy had a dick that was way bigger than my ex husbands and it was really nice. Another thing I liked a lot about it was that the guy shaved down there. It was all bald and really really, oh god it was so so nice! Anyway, the girl is on her bed and the guy walks up to her completely naked, and she looks at it. She touches his dick and balls while she looks at it, and all of a sudden, she sticks her tongue out and licks him. She licked him a few times before she lifts it up and puts his dick in her mouth. I saw her cheeks suck in and it looked like she was having sex with him, only with her mouth.

“Oh my god I wanna do that so bad.” I whispered while I watched her.

Then she licks the guys dick and ends up sucking his dick again, I watched how she did it several different ways. I liked it when she opened her mouth really wide, put his dick in her mouth but didn’t close her lips around him until she had him kinda far in her mouth. When she closed her lips around him, she would pull her head back and when she did, I could tell she was sucking because her cheeks looked like she was. Then she started to move her mouth back on his dick and I saw that she had her tongue out a little, and I didn’t know why. But then I saw her almost put his whole dick in her mouth.

“Oh my god, that’s really hhhhhot.” I whispered.

I watched her take turns licking and sucking the guys dick for a few minutes before I actually saw her with her hand around him and she was jerking him off. She jerked him off and licked him at the same time for a minute before she started to suck his dick again, only she wasn’t going all that slow this time. After a few minutes of watching her lick, suck and jerk him off, I watched the guy cum all over the girls tongue and chin. After that movie was over, I was so horny that, I don’t know, I had never been that horny before except for when I had naughty thoughts about Mason! So that was only the second time in my whole life that I had ever been that horny, and when I thought about doing that to Mason, holy SHIT! I got way way hornier than I already was! I didn’t wanna masturbate that time because the last time I did, people heard me, so what I did instead was that I watched more of those videos and took a bunch of notes, no seriously, I literally took notes in my diary!

I noticed that there were so many different ways that you can do it. All of the girls licked the guys dick, they sucked it, they jerked it, and I noticed that they would always kinda twist their heads from side to side, and when they were jerking the guy off, they twisted their wrists. So what I did was I got off of my bed and grabbed my brush. I pretended that Mason came in my room all naked and that’s when I started to practice everything I saw and learned. The next morning when I got up, I went to my friends because they seemed like they really knew what they were talking about. I told them what I saw and asked them if they had anymore advice for me. After breakfast, we all went to my room after Denice went to her room. She came back with a dildo, don’t worry, it was still brand new and in its packing thingy. I’d never seen one so I was a little freaked out, but I got more comfortable with it because they started to help me. The one thing I didn’t see, was that the girls would lick the guys dick or they were doing something with their tongues while they were sucking them. That’s when they opened the package thingy and gave me the dildo and started to coach me basically, I learned way more then than I did with the videos! Denice let me keep the dildo so I could practice so I could be good for my Mason.

Now I had a major problem, I was way way horny now because I didn’t play with myself for a few days. I was literally watching blow job porn and taking notes, don’t make fun of me, all the time so I could learn all the different ways to do it. But after a while I started to watch a different kind of porn, I watched love making porn. I watched young couples like me and Mason make love, and my friends were right, I literally saw everything! I thought I was horny before, but after literally seeing the guys dick inside of the girls, oh my god! I saw the young lovers in almost all of the positions that my friends all told me about. But my favorite was ones where the girls were on top like in the cowgirl and reverse cowgirl positions. And when I saw that, I couldn’t help but dream about Mason, and that made me hornier than I had ever been. I grabbed the toy that Denice gave to me and took my pants and panties off. I climbed under my blankets and started to really fantasize about Mason! I closed my eyes and pretended that he came into my room out of no where. In my fantasy, he was wearing nothing but a robe and I was sitting on my bed. I was surprised to see him standing there, but I was really really horny for him too.

I laid down and looked in his eyes, and when I did, he smiled at me and moved his hand and I watched it while he reached down and and untied his robe, and when it fell open, his beautiful shaved dick came out. I laid there and touched myself while he walked up to me, and when he got to me, I reached up and looked in his eyes while I touched his dick. I grabbed the toy and held it like his dick would have been and I took him into my mouth. I moaned while I imagined that I was sucking his big dick, and while I did that, I touched myself. I started to do everything I learned from the videos and from my friends. After a long time, I felt this amazing feeling all over my body and my heart was pounding. I completely forgot about the porn that was playing on my phone while I fantasized that I grabbed him and made him lay on his back. I laid on my stomach and when I did, I turned the toy on like Denice showed me and lifted my butt in the air so I could get my hand and new toy down to my little pussy. I pushed it against my slit while it vibrated and started to rub myself with it, but when I first touched myself with it, I jumped because it felt sssssooooo so amazing! After a few minutes, that amazing feeling got so strong that I couldn’t even think straight. I had this ache that I never felt before and it started to grow and grow and grow.

That aching got to where I couldn’t take it anymore at all, and before I knew it, I fantasized that Mason and I were making out and that I was holding his dick.

“I wanna make love to you Mason.” I moaned while I kept rubbing myself slowly and moving my hips like I was humping him so that I was rubbing myself with his dick.

I fantasized that he stopped kissing me and looked in my eyes while he held my head against his and said that he wanted me to make love to him. I held the toy still right where his dick would go inside of me before I pushed my hips down until I felt the toy go deep inside of me with ease without any lube. I was so so wet and I had never been even close to being as wet as I was right then. My little hand was literally soaked in my own juices! I started to lift and lower myself slowly on the toy all while fantasizing that he and I were kissing so so passionately and slowly. A few second later, I had thee most intense amazing feeling wash over my whole body.

“Oh…ooohhh ggod mmm…Mason.” I whispered while I started to move my butt up and down a little faster.

In my fantasy, he was moaning and letting me do what I wanted, he let me have complete control, so I made love to him nice and slow, it was so so sensual and so so erotic. Before I knew it, that feeling I was having got like, a million times stronger and I felt this really really strong urge to pee like before, only I couldn’t stop no matter how hard I tried.

“I lll, llllove, love you mmm, Mason.” I whimpered.

Right after that, I don’t know what happened, but I was peeing all over in my bed, and it was really really bad. It was like I lost all control of anything that happened! I was gasping Masons name and my whole body was like, jerking and shaking really bad. I knew my muscles were tightening up like crazy, but what I also noticed, is that when I was peeing, I wasn’t peeing like normal. My whole body would tense up and pee would come out of me in spurts, not like it normally would, it didn’t smell like pee either. While that was happening, I was fantasizing that Mason was making me pregnant with his baby at the same time. After a minute, I collapsed on my stomach and laid there shaking and trying to catch my breath, and when I closed my eyes, all I could see was him. It took a long time, but I was finally able to get up and clean myself off as best as I could since as far as I knew, I just peed in my bed like crazy, I left thee biggest wet spot ever!

I had to change my sheets, but my mattress still had my pee in it. I got dressed and laid in my bed with a smile thinking about my Mason, god I wish he was really here like that, I thought while I laid there. I was shocked that I didn’t even need lube at all during that whole fantasy, I was wet enough that I didn’t even need it. My new toy was bigger than my ex husbands dick and I needed a lot of lube so he wouldn’t hurt me. Then again I had never been so horny that I didn’t need lube, so I guess I never was all that horny before, if at all. After I changed my sheets and put a towel over my pee so it wouldn’t get all over me again, I put my panties on and laid back down. That’s when I realized that the video was done, so I went back to my search results and book marked it, then I went to the blow job one and book marked that too. I planned on learning everything I could so I could make Mason want to make love to me all of the time. I thought about him doing to me what I saw the guys doing to the girls in the videos too. I never thought about letting a guy eat me out before but after seeing how those girls liked it, I started to think that maybe it wasn’t so bad. I gotta figure out how to shave my pussy like those girls, I’ll bet Mason would love that, I wonder if he shaves his dick, I thought while I laid there. Then I started to think that it would be so so hot to see him looking up at me while I laid there all naked and while he licked me down there.

“Ooooooohhhh gggod..” I whispered while I closed my eyes and pictured that sexy man eating my little pussy.

Oh my god I’m so so horny for him, I thought. Then I thought, ok, if he had sex with his ex fiancé then I’m definitely going for it now and there was nothing that was going to stop me. It took me the longest time to calm down because all I saw when I closed my eyes was me on top of him, making love to him while I kissed and made out with him. I could see his amazing eyes and hear him moaning for me while he let me have total control. After the longest time ever, I noticed that I could not stop being horny at all. I laid there and thought about him and everything I wanted to do to him and everything I wanted him to do to me. I was still really really wet and horny and after a while, I finally, finally fell asleep, and when I woke up, I had to start touching myself again because I had an amazing amazing dream about Mason, and yes, we made love! That was the first and only time that I had ever been like, out of my mind horny. I fell asleep horny and I woke up even hornier, and Mason was the reason.

“Wakey wakey.” I heard a voice say making me stop playing with my pussy.

“What are you guys doing?” I asked while I sat up to see Denice and Becca coming in.

“Someone had fun last night.” Denice said while she came up and jumped on my bed.

“Oh my god, was I loud again?” I asked all embarrassed and covered my face.

“No, no one heard you this time.” Becca said.

“Then how do you know?” I asked.

“It smells like sex in here.” Denice said.

“I didn’t have sex though.” I said.

“You had sex with yourself.” Denice said making my face feel hot.

“Look at her, she’s adorable, aaaawwww!” Becca said.

“You’re blushing so so bad right now.” Denice said.

“I can’t help it, I’m sorry.” I said while I laughed.

“So who were you thinking about?” Becca asked.

“Where have you been? She was thinking about her new boy toy Mason.” Denice said making me giggle.

“He’s really really hot now, I can’t help it.” I said while I giggled.

“You really have it bad for him don’t you?” Denice asked.

“I’m in love with him so, yeah, I do.” I said.

“Does he know that?” Becca asked.

“Yes he does because I told him.” I said.

“Is he in love with you?” Denice asked.

“Yes he is, he told me that he never stopped loving me and that he was still in love with me.” I said.

“You’re being so fucking adorable!” Becca said.

“I’m starting to think that she’s not lying about him being her boyfriend.” Denice said.

“It’s because I’m not.” I said while my phone vibrated.

“I don’t know, I’m a little skeptical still since I’ve never seen them kiss.” Becca said while I grabbed my phone and saw that Mason sent me a text.

“Hold on, he’s texting me.” I said with a huge smile.

“Wow, you lit up.” Denice said.

“Cause I’m excited.” I said while I looked at my phone.

Mason: hey baby, your amazing text was the best way to end my shift here, I am coming to see u today, I miss u. I have some news for u that I wanna tell u about when I get there. I know you have some appointments today so I’m coming to see u in the evening so I don’t have to rush, I wanna spend as much time with u as I can. I’m going home and taking a nap, call me if u can, I need to hear your sweet voice, if I don’t answer please leave a message. I love u forever beautiful.

“Look.” I said while I showed them the text he sent me and started crying.

They took my phone and read the text he sent me.

“I guess we stand corrected again, I’m so happy for you!” Denice said before she hugged me.

“I told you.” I said.

“Yes you did, do I hear wedding bells?” Becca asked.

“Probably.” I said.

“Aaaaaawwww! I’m so so happy for you!” Denice said.

“I am too, I still can’t believe that he found me and that we are together again.” I said.

“So how long were you guys separated?” Becca asked.

“He was taken from me when I was 14, and I’m 19 now, so to be exact, five years two months and three days.” I said making them laugh.

“Damn, do you have it down to hours too?” Denice asked.

“No, I lost count of hours and minutes a long time ago.” I said.

“Did you think you’d ever see him again?” Becca asked.

“No I didn’t. I mean, I looked for him when I got out of the order and everything but I couldn’t find him.” I said.

“What did you do when you first saw him again after five years two months and three days?” Denice asked.

“I cried.” I said.

“Did he cry?” Becca asked.

“Yes he did. He was so so happy to see me.” I said.

“Aaaaaawwww, you reunited with your soul mate.” Denice said.

“I know, I didn’t think it was ever going to happen.” I said.

“Well guess what, you did and we are so happy for you, you’re a lucky luck girl.” Denice said.

“I know.” I said.

“Now we just need to get you ready to have sex with him. Have you been watching any more videos?” Denice asked.

“Yes I have, and I actually have some questions.” I said.

“Ok, we’ll try to to answer them as best as we can.” Becca said.

“I think it’s so adorable that you’re so so innocent. We’ll help as much as we can.” Denice said.

“Thank you.” I said.

“First question, shoot.” Becca said.

“Ok um, so I um, I noticed that all of the girls in those movies shaved their vajayjays. Do guys really like that?” I asked.

“It depends on the guy really. A lot of them do like it a lot and they prefer their women to be shaved like that. It just makes them want it more, especially if the girl likes getting her pussy licked. And if the guy loves to do that, he’ll more than likely prefer it that way. Some guys like the smooth feel on their tongues and lips.” Denice said.

“Well. It’s not just that, the other reason is because when they go down on a girl, they don’t really like having hair get in their mouths. And if the guy has a beard like your man does, you’ll love how it feels when he goes down on you if you’re all shaved and smooth.” Becca said.

“I wonder if Mason likes them shaved.” I said.

“You’ll have to ask him, but he looks like the kind of guy that loves that.” Denice said.

“So I need to shave then, it’s growing out of control down there.” I said.

“Have you ever shaved?” Becca asked.

“No I haven’t. I’ve never even cut it.” I said.

“So you have a pretty big bush down there I take it.” Becca asked.

“Yeah I do it’s like a jungle down there.” I said making us all laugh.

“That’s fine, some guys like that too, but Mason looks like the kinda guy that would prefer it to be shaved and smooth.” Denice said.

“Ok, shave it is then, I’ll do that tonight but I’ll need some pointers so I can do it right. Now I like, have another question, but you have to promise me that you won’t make fun of me.” I said.

“Ok, let’s have it.” Denice said.

“Is it like, is it like, normal to pee when you have sex.” I asked.

“What do you mean?” Becca asked.

“Well, last night I was like, fantasizing about Mason after watching a video of a couple having sex, and when I fantasized about him it felt sssssssooooo so good. And when I pretended that he was making love to me, I started to get really really wet, I mean, it was really really bad. And after a while it felt so so good that I ended up peeing.” I said making them look at me like they were really really excited.

“Wait, you’ve had sex and this hasn’t even happened to you before?!” Becca asked.

“No it hasn’t.” I said while I started to feel really embarrassed.

“Like, ever?” She asked.

“Never has.” I said.

“You said that you were really wet before that happened?!” Denice asked.

“Well, when I watched the movie and thought about him, I started to get really wet down there, and that’s what it was like before I even like, used the toy you gave me.” I said.

“Did you put it inside of yourself?” Denice asked.

“Yeah, I couldn’t help it. And when I fantasized that I was on top of Mason and making love to him, I ended up peeing because it felt way way good.” I said.

“Aaaaaaaaaaaawwwwww!!! Our little Kaylee is getting all grown up! This is so exciting!” Denice said before she and Becca hugged me.

“God you’re so so innocent, my god!” Denice said.

“Ok, so what happened is very very natural, that’s very normal. Do you know how you said that you had to use a lot of lube when you were married to your selfish fucking prick asshole of a husband?” Becca asked.

“Yeah.” I said.

“Did you have to use any lube to get the toy inside of you last night?” Denice asked.

“I didn’t have to use any at all.” I said.

“Here is why, you were so turned on and horny because you were thinking about your boyfriend that your body produced its own lube and a lot of it.” Denice said.

“And it felt so good after a while that you went pee?” Becca asked.

“Yeah, is that normal?” I asked.

“Oh my god we have to celebrate!!” Denice said.

“So it’s good that I went pee? I went pee in my bed, that’s so gross.” I said.

“Aaaawwww, so so adorable and so so innocent, so so cute!” Becca said while she pinched my cheeks.

“So tell me, when you went pee, did it come out in one continuous flow?” Denice asked.

“At first it did, but it came out in big like, spurts I guess.” I said.

“Were you tingling all over the place?” Becca asked making me nod my head yes.

“Was your whole body aching, shaking and tensing up?” Becca asked making me nod my head yes again.

“Did it feel like you had a water balloon or something inside of you that like, popped or something like that?” Denice asked making me nod my head yes.

“Were there these incredible chills, not like normal ones, I’m talking skin crawling, warm fuzzy chills, did you have that too?” Becca asked making me nod my head yes.

“Were you shaking and were all of your muscles spasming and stuff?” Becca asked.

“It was really bad, I jerked really bad every time my pee came out.” I said.

“Aaaaaaaaaawwwwww!! You weren’t going pee at all!” Denice said.

“I wasn’t?” I asked.

“Oh no, no you weren’t. That wasn’t pee honey, that was cum, you were cumming.” She said making me smile.

“Really?” I asked.

“Congratulations, you just had your very first real orgasm!” Becca said making me get excited.

“I had an orgasm?!” I asked.

“Yes you did cutie, congratulations!” Denice said.

“Notice that your piss doesn’t smell like piss?” Becca asked.

“Yeah I do actually.” I said.

“See, you didn’t piss in your bed, you made yourself cum.” Denice said.

After they left my room so I could get ready for breakfast, I couldn’t help but feel really really dirty. I felt so so dirty knowing that I made myself cum, I had no idea that that’s what happened to me at all till they told me, but I freaking LOVED IT!! Oh my god it was so so amazing, I felt really dirty and stuff, but I liked that I felt that way so so much! Just because of the fact that Mason was in my fantasy when I had my very first orgasm ever made it like, a thousand times better! I don’t think you’ll ever understand how much I wanted him to have had lots and lots of sex with his ex fiancé, because if he did, I just knew that our first time making love to each other was going to be so so amazing and so beautiful. After I was ready, I went out to breakfast and all of my friends gave me hugs and stuff, they were happy that I made myself cum, oh god it’s so hot saying that!! While we were talking, I thought I should call him and say hi like he asked, but I waited too long so he didn’t answer, but I did get his voicemail. When I heard his amazing deep voice I started to shake and get really nervous. I got chills and my palms started to sweat and everything I felt for him started to come back so strong that I almost started crying.

“You’ve reached Mason McCarthy, I think it’s pretty obvious that I can’t take your call otherwise I would have answered, or maybe I’m just ignoring your call but I guess you’ll never know. You know what to do, if you don’t then you must have just graduated from the cave man era to this new generation and for that, I congratulate you…..beeeeep.” It said making me laugh.

“Hey sexy it’s me, I just wanted to say hi and I’m so sorry that you had a rough shift. I can’t stop thinking about you, I’ll see you when you get here, I miss you. I love you forever baby.” I said before I kissed my phone so he could hear it.

That day was amazing! I went to my group therapy classes where I talked about what Tim did to me and after that, I met my new therapist. I realized that I could talk about everything I went through without even crying, I mean, I got a little mad when I talked about it, but I didn’t even cry. I wasn’t depressed about it all I was mad at my ex asshole for doing everything he did. I was still mad at my dad and I was still mad at the order for ruining my life the way they did. My therapist said that she thinks that I made a lot of progress and that she didn’t think I needed to be there much longer, so she was going to let me get out and start my new life with Mason! She told me that she needed to meet with me a few more times, but I made so much progress that she was surprised. After that session, I went back to the lounge and saw a huge bouquet of beautiful red roses that were arranged, and my friends and a bunch of other people were all standing there looking at me.

“Ok, so we all stand corrected, yet again we are so sorry that we didn’t believe you.” Gina said.

“What are you talking about?” I asked.

“Mason, your boyfriend?” Roberta asked.

“What about him?” I asked.

“Well, he sent these for you.” Becca said.

“Are you serious?” I asked while I smiled so big that it hurt.

I walked up to them, oh my god they were so so beautiful!

The last person to send me flowers was Mason, and that was like, a week after we started courting and he sent them to me at least once every two weeks, and I was fourteen then! No one ever bought me flowers after he got taken away from me, so this was the first time in five years that I had ever gotten flowers! I started to cry a little while I looked at the card that came with it. It said “Thank you for making this an incredible day! I can’t tell you how excited and happy I am to have you back in my life! I will see you soon, love you always beautiful.” After I read that, I remembered why I fell in love with him so hard in the first place, he was so so amazing. Him sending me those flowers like that just made all of my feelings for him as strong as they were when we courted.

“Oh my god I love him so so much!” I said while I cried.

“Aaaaaaaaawwwww!!” Some of the girls said.

I took my phone out of my pocket so I could thank him and tell him that I loved him and when I swiped the screen I noticed that I had a voice mail from him. So I went to my mail box and listened to the message he left for me.

“Hey beautiful, I hope you got the flowers I sent you and I hope that it wasn’t too much, and if it was please let me know. Funny how you said that you can’t stop thinking about me because I’ve been thinking about you all day for the last..I don’t even know, I lost count. I’ll see you at six, I love you always and forever.” He said before he kissed his phone.

“Ok, so like, I’m seriously going to marry this guy.” I said while I cried.

“Wow you’re glowing!” Denice said while I started to text my boyfriend.

Me: no baby, the flowers were not too much at all!! I loved them! You made my day, but you did make me cry you jerk! Lol

Mason: oh…my bad

Me: so this just made what I have to say to you way way easier

Mason: uh oh.

Me: don’t worry baby, I could never let you go. I lost you once already I’m not letting u get away again!!

Mason: so it’s going to be a good talk?

Me: yes

Mason: God, is it six yet?

Me: I wish, OMG I wish!!!!!!

Mason: I love you

Me: I love u!

Mason: I guess u have a session coming up

Me: I just wanna come home to u!

Mason: you will be coming home to me soon baby

Me: STOP MAKING ME CRY!!

Mason: ok, I guess I will…sigh*

Me: now I’m laughing and crying at the same time. I have a group therapy session that’s getting ready to start, I’ll see u soon baby, I love you always!

Mason: yes you will, I love you forever baby!

“He loves me, see?” I asked while I showed them the texts.

I got so many hugs because very one there was happy for me, all of them told me that they wished that they had a man like I did

“Isn’t he coming to see you sometime in the next couple of days?” Roberta asked.

“He’s coming tonight.” I said with the worlds biggest smile.

“Ok, so if you want, we can make you look sexy for him.” Denice said.

“Really?!” I asked.

“Yeah.” Becca said.

“Yeah, I wanna look really really hot for him, and maybe a little slutty but not like a total slut.” I said.

“You wanna have sex with him don’t you?” Roberta asked while she laughed.

“He’s my boyfriend and he’s really hot, so I mean, yeah.” I said making the girls all look at me surprised since they knew how sheltered I was.

“Oh my god you’re so adorable!” Denice said.

We went to our group therapy session, and that’s when I told them the whole story about how I met Mason well cause, they and the therapist asked me about it. I told them about how we became best friends and did everything together and how we fell in love during that. And since they asked, I told them about our first date and our first kiss and how we were going to get married. I told them that the order and mom were planning our wedding and how excited I was because I found the love of my life. Then I told them about what happened to Masons mom and sisters and what he ended up doing to his step dad. And I told them how he was arrested but the charges were dropped and that’s when my life got ruined, when the order took him away from me. They asked me about everything that happened to me after that. I think it’s kinda funny that they all saw how my life was turned upside down after they took him, and I told them that my life was never the same after that. They were really excited for me when I told them that he literally saved my life after my ex killed my baby that wasn’t even born yet, and almost killed me. We talked about him almost the whole time and I was sssooo not expecting that session to be all about my love life with Mason. After the session was over, I got even more excited to see him but I was kinda getting horny too because I was going to try to get him to look at my boobs like he use to again. I don’t know why, but I loved it when he looked at my boobs, and of course I had to make him touch them when we were courting.

“Denice, Becca, come on he’s going to be here soon.” I said making them get all excited.

“Yay, let’s get you all sexy for him!” Gina said.

“Hey are you coming, cause we got go now, he’s going to be here in an couple of hours, Becca come on.” I said.

We went to my room and we started to look for the perfect shirt, I wanted to look hot and I wanted him to want to make love to me.

“Hey, why don’t you wear his uniform shirt?” Becca asked.

“I wanna look sexy for him.” I said.

“Well, we can still make you look sexy in that shirt.” Denice said.

“You think so?” I asked.

“Yeah we can, just trust us.” Becca said.

I grabbed his uniform shirt and they took some shorts I had that actually matched it, his uniform shirt was navy blue and it had his patches and it had paramedic and critical care on the back.

“Wait a second, I have an idea, I’ll be right back.” Becca said.

“Wait, what is your bra size?” She asked.

“B.” I said.

“Awesome, I’ll be right back.” She said while she ran out of the room.

While she was gone, the rest of the girls started to do my hair while I started to do my makeup. He loved it when I wore lipgloss instead of lipstick and when I wore lipgloss, he couldn’t stop kissing me. After a few minutes Becca came back in my room with a really really cute bra It was all white and it looked like it was from Victoria’s Secret. It was really soft and I noticed that it was kinda see through. I kinda got excited because I could tell that the bra was small.

“Ok, so it’s totally up to you on how much you wanna show your man, but I’m warning you that if you decide to wear this, your boobs are going to be hanging out.” Becca said.

“That’s what I want, he likes my boobs.” I said while I started getting horny.

“He does?” Denice asked.

“Yeah, on our first date mom made me wear a tight tank top that showed my boobs and cleavage really good and he couldn’t stop looking at them and after that I wore shirts like that for him all the time.” I said.

“You’re going to look so hot.” Gina said.

After my hair was straightened and my make up was done, I went into the bathroom and got dressed. I wore my smallest pair of shorts I had, and they were tight. I put the bra on and adjusted my boobs and realized that Becca was right, my boobs were hanging out, my cleavage looked amazing even though it pushed them up a little, I mean, my boobs were really perky already, but the bra made them look way perkier. I put Masons shirt on and stood there looking at myself before I went back out.

“You want to show your boobs right?” Denice asked.

“Yeah but his shirt is too big.” I said.

“That just makes it sexier if your shirt falls off of your shoulders, you want that.” Becca said.

“And I’m pretty sure he’ll like that a lot.” Denice said.

“Here.” Becca said while she walked up to me.

“Roll these sleeves up.” Denice said while she and Becca helped me roll up my sleeves.

“Ok, watch this.” Gina said while she started to unbutton the top buttons of the shirt.

“One more.” Denice said.

“Look at you.” Gina said.

I looked in the mirror and I could see my bra really good, I could see my boobs and my tummy, I was amazed and I felt really really sexy!

“Perfect.” I said.

“Now let the shirt fall down one of your shoulders from time to time, your boobs look great.” Becca said.

“You look really hot.” Gina said.

“Thanks guys.” I said while I hugged them.

I sprayed some perfume on so I would smell good for him and hopefully drive him crazy. After I was ready, I went back out in the lounge area with my friends and waited for my boyfriend. It kinda worked out that he was coming at six because it was around dinner time and that meant that he might get to eat dinner with me!! I was like, so so excited to see him since it was almost two weeks since I had seen him, but I was horny too and I couldn’t wait to see his face when he saw the way I dressed for him. I think I was a little extra horny about it because I never really dressed like I was then. I mean, I did show my boobs to him a lot when we courted and he touched them when we made out, but after Mason was taken away from me, I was never allowed to wear anything like that again. We were sitting there talking and I started to worry a little bit since he didn’t make it there yet, then again it wasn’t six yet.

Me: hey baby, I miss u, when r u going to be here

Mason: I’m close beautiful, I can not wait to see u, I don’t know why but I’m going fucking crazy. Your messages made me miss u bad

Me: aaaaaawwwww!!! I so can’t wait to c u baby!!

Mason: I’m not that far out, I’m less than five minutes out

Me: YYYYAAAAYYY!!! Hurry I need to see u like, right now!

Mason: u r going to make me get a speeding ticket!

Me: I love u forever!

Mason: I love you always, see u soon beautiful.

That was the longest most nerve racking five minutes of my life! I was so so nervous and I don’t even know why, I mean, it’s not like I didn’t know him or that I never courted him before. But I was so so nervous that you would have thought that this was the very first time that we were going to meet! I think it was because I was like, sssssssoooooo so so attracted to him for so many reasons. He was the biggest sweetheart, he was always gentle with me and the thing I loved the most was that he treated me like I was like, this queen or princess or whatever. I loved that he was kinda weird because I could be as weird as I wanted and I loved loved loved all of his quirks. He had the sexiest laugh ever, the sexiest voice ever and he had thee best sense of humor! I would say things to him that were a joke and he would play along and laugh about it instead of getting mad. They would be mean things too, things that always got me beat up when I was married. The worst punishment I ever got from saying something mean to him was that he would lick my face, and he would laugh while he did it. It was always always like that with him because we knew each other before we started courting, we were best friends remember? I don’t even think you know how attracted I was to him now that we reunited! It was so so bad because my palms were sweating, I was shaking and my heart was racing, I was nervous and I was excited at the same time! I just sat there and waited for him and while I was talking to my friends, I couldn’t concentrate at all. All of a sudden I saw Denice look up and then she grabbed my arm.

“Kaylee, he’s here, he’s here.” She said making me look at the door to see him walking through the door!

I got up and smiled so so big when I saw the love of my life walking to me with his amazing smile, and I couldn’t help but look at the spot where I knew his dick was. And when I did, I saw this bump, I’d say that it was a small bump but it wasn’t, it looked big. I started to walk to him and couldn’t help but look at him there and the more I looked, the hornier I got.

“Hey baby.” I said while we walked to each other.

“Hey beautiful.” He said.

“It’s about time.” I said once he got to me and picked me up and hugged me.

“Oh my good god I missed you.” He said while I hugged his neck and held him while I wrapped my legs around his waist.

“I missed you too.” I said.

“I can not believe how amazingly beautiful you are, you take my breath away every time I see you.” He said.

“Thank you.” I said while I lifted my head and put it against his.

“Oh my god you smell so good.” He hissed making me get all excited while I smiled.

“Why is every one staring at us?” He asked while his eyes moved since he was looking into mine.

“Because I kinda lied and told them that you’re my boyfriend.” I said.

“You didn’t lie baby.” He said.

“I didn’t?” I asked.

“No you didn’t because I am your boyfriend.” He said making me get even more excited.

“About that, I said that I needed to talk to you.” I said.

“Yeah you did.” He said.

“Come with me.” I said while I unwrapped my legs from around him.

I felt his uniform shirt sliding down my shoulder while he lowered me gently, and while he was doing that, I tried to see if I could feel that bump in his pants. I kinda shook because while he was lowering me, I felt it, I felt it slide from my pussy and up my stomach! Oh my god you have no idea how horny I got just from feeling his bump, I was so hoping that it was his dick. I took both of his hands and started to pull him back wards. I looked at the bump in his pants and looked up and saw him looking at my boobs.

“You look really hot.” I said making him look in my eyes while I walked him to where the tables were.

“So do you, my god.” He said while I sat down and looked at his bump again.

“I’m going to make this quick because they all wanna meet you. I don’t want to wait till I’m all the way better to court you, I want to court you now. I wanna like, pick up where we left off because I’m like, ssssoooo so in love with you” I said after he sat down.

He didn’t say anything at all, at least not at first. He pulled me closer to him, put his hand on my face brushed my hair behind my ear, slid his fingers to my chin gently and he pressed his soft lips against my lower lip and kissed me! He let go for a second and that’s when I put my hand on his face and started to rub his soft beard and slid my tongue out and licked his top lip before I kissed him back. When we let go that time, we both kinda turned our heads and our mouths opened at the exact same time, then I felt and tasted his tongue go right in my mouth. I kinda exhaled hard and I chased his tongue back in his mouth with my tongue, and we kissed like that slowly a few times before we stopped.

“Oh my god I missed this so so bad.” I whispered while I tried to catch my breath.

“I missed this too, can I do back flips now?” He asked making me giggle.

“If you want, but you have to kiss me again first.” I said while I smiled.

“Ok.” He said before he kissed me so so slow and passionately.

I kissed him back, of course, and we kissed just as slow as the first time, it was like our first date all over again! My head was spinning, I was shaking and it felt like we were the only two left in the world. I loved that we were back together and kissing again, and I loved that he was actually making me get really really hot and horny for him! After a minute, we stopped kissing and he looked in my eyes.

“By the way, I’m deeply in love with you too, and I want to court you now too, you just made my year.” He said.

“Yay me.” I said with the worlds biggest smile.

“I missed your taste.” He said while he rubbed my face like, really softly.

“I missed yours, I don’t think you’ll ever know.” I said while I rubbed his face and sexy beard.

“Yeah well, I hate to break it to you but I think I have a pretty good idea.” He said with a smile.

“Maybe so.” I said.

“You look incredibly sexy in my shirt by the way.” He said while all of my friends started to clear their throats to get our attention.

“Thanks I wore it just for you, see?” I asked making him look down.

I knew my boobs were showing because his shirt fell down my right shoulder and was resting on my arm close to my elbow, and I could feel the air hitting them.

“Your bra is showing baby.” He said while he slid his finger really really softly between my boobs till he touched the little strap on my bra between them.

When I felt him touch my skin it was like electricity just like, went through my whole body. I started to feel really really hot and I
kinda shivered. Remember when we had our first date and the sparks we had were all blinding and stuff, yeah, it was like that only way way way better because he was almost touching my boobs, he was rubbing me right between them!

“Should I fix my shirt?” I asked while he kept touching and rubbing me there really really softly.

“No please don’t, I like it this way.” He said while he looked at my boobs then my eyes.

“You still like my boobs?” I asked.

“I love em.” He said.

“I love that you love them, I wore this shirt like this for you.” I said while he looked in my eyes.

“You’re so beautiful.” He said.

“Why is your face turning red?” I asked while he looked at my boobs again.

“Because.” He said.

“God I love your beard and your hair.” I said while I pulled his ponytail around his shoulder.

“You think it’s sexy huh?” He asked jokingly while my friends all cleared their throats again.

“I think you’re sexy.” I said before I kinda bit my lip and played with his long soft hair.

“Good.” He said before he kissed me again a few times.

“Ok, we better stop before I get in trouble.” I said after we stopped kissing.

“Yeah we really should because I really don’t want to get you in trouble.” He said.

“Thanks baby.” I said.

“Can we continue this when you get out of here?” He asked right when I felt two of his fingers actually touch my boobs a little.

“Really baby? You have to ask?” I asked.

“I’m going with, no.” He said making me giggle.

“That’s the right answer, you don’t have to ask because we are definitely going to continue this.” I said.

“Oh my god, I’m not sure I’m going to be able to control myself around you all that well when you get out, you’re so fucking beautiful, jesus.” He said.

“Well, I know I won’t be able to either since I’m way way more attracted to you than I was when we courted, but I’ll try.” I said.

“Was I not attractive then?” He asked jokingly.

“No no, you were the cutest boy in the whole order then why do you think you went on so many dates? All of the girls there including me thought you were the cutest and hottest boy ever. Now you have this long hair, this beard and you clearly work out all of the time still, so you’re way way hotter than you were like, a Million times hotter. I didn’t think that was possible for the cutes and hottest boy ever to get even hotter, I mean, how is that even possible?” I asked.

“You were the most beautiful girl I had ever seen and that’s why I chose you and now you’re so beautiful that you’re a goddess.” He said making me swoon so bad.

“I chose you once I saw that you were on my list.” I said.

“Can you believe that we are actually courting again?” He asked like he couldn’t believe it.

“It doesn’t feel real, it feels like I died and went to heaven.” I said.

“I know, I love it.” He said.

“I love you forever Mason.” I said while I looked in his eyes.

“I love you always Kaylee.” He said before he kissed me a few times.

Oh my god he was such an incredible kisser! I don’t think you’ll ever know how much I loved the way he tasted and how much I loved the feel of his tongue going in my mouth, and how it felt when our tongues like, slid together when we kissed! I don’t think you’ll ever understand what that man did to me, oh my god.

“Come meet my friends.” I said after we stopped kissing.

“Ok, I love you always Kaylee.” He said while he brushed my hair around my ear making me start crying a little while he looked in my eyes.

“I love you forever Mason, I love you forever.” I said while I hugged him and held onto him.

I stood up and turned to face the girls, took both of his hands and pulled him behind me to where they were. Oh my god I was ssssssoooo in love with him and I was really horny too! I was all squishy in my panties and shorts, and I could feel my wetness leaking out while I was walking. I had that ache that I felt for the first time ever the night before, but since my baby was actually there and he touched me where he did, it was way worse. Especially since I think I turned him on because when he got up, I saw his bump and I think it was bigger! Oh my god I turned him on, I made him horny for me, I thought while I pulled him to my friends. I was never ever like, close to being that horny with my ex because he was the “by the order book” kind of guy. He did everything according to how the order taught so he never ever turned me on like Mason did, not even close. I loved loved loved that when we got to my friends, he pulled me against him even while we held hands, it was like he couldn’t keep his hands off of me. We sat down in a recliner chair and started talking and while we were talking, we had a big group of people come up to us and join us. And when it was dinner time, I got to sit next to him and he did get to eat with us. I was so so wet and so so horny that it wasn’t funny at all, I loved it, I loved that he did that to me! I fell in love with feeling horny and sexy like he made me feel! I had to go to the little girls room to wipe myself, it got that bad! After dinner, we went back to the lounge me and my sexy handsome boyfriend sat in the recliner together again. I sat in his lap and he made the foot rest come up so that we would be cuddling. We started talking about anything and everything and after a while, everyone left us alone so we could just be in each other’s arms again. I forgot what it was like to cuddle with him and how it was to feel his breath on me.

“I still can’t get over how beautiful and sexy you look.” He whispered in my ear while he held me.

Oh my god he just said that I looked sexy, and am I feeling his bump getting bigger and hard, oh my god is that his dick?! Am I giving him a boner, I thought. Just thinking that I was doing that to him made me beyond horny!! God maybe I shouldn’t have been watching all of that porn and stuff because I was getting so horny thinking that I might have been making him get a boner. Ooooohhhh ggggod I hope he had a ton of sex with his fiancé, I thought.

“Thank you baby.” I said before I reached up and kissed him.

“Shit, I forgot that I have some news for you.” He said after we stopped kissing.

“Yeah?” I asked while I snuck his hand close to where he could feel my bare tummy without him knowing.

I looked up at him and moved so that I could hide the fact that I wanted to feel him touch my body. I like, used that as an excuse to do that. And when I finally got his hand where I wanted it, I felt his thumb touch my tummy. When he touched my belly with his thumb, that electricity that I described before, it like, went through every single part of my body!

“Yeah I do.” He said.

All of a sudden, I felt his thumb move because he started to rub my tummy a little while he was rubbing my thumb.

“Well what is it?” I asked while that electricity went through me over and over again.

“Last night was my last night at my hospital job.” He said making me get worried that he quit for me.

“Why did you do that?” I asked.

“I want to spend as much time with you as I can, I wanna be with you.” He said.

“You didn’t have to do that baby.” I said.

“Actually yeah I did because if I kept that job and worked both of them, I would have no time to be with you and that really does not work for me. I lost you once, I’m not loosing you again.” He said.

“Baby, I’m not going anywhere, I lost you too and now that you’re back in my life and we are courting again, I’m not going let you go ever again, I promise.” I said.

“I know baby, but look at it this way. I had two part time jobs and a full time job, well, I quit my other part time job a long time ago but still. With the two jobs I had now I had only three sometimes four days a month off of work, that’s not a lot of off time. I haven’t been here that much because of that, and it’s not working for me now. If I would have kept my hospital job I would only see you for a few days a month, I’ll go crazy and I won’t be able to function. I need you so I quit that job so all I have to do is work, go to the gym and be with you.” He said while he rubbed my belly and thumb.

“Well since you put it that way.” I said while my body tried to tense up because he was making me so so horny!

“It makes sense doesn’t it?” He asked.

“It makes perfect sense I mean, I don’t think I can go that long without seeing you because I’m having a hard enough time with that as it is.” I said.

“That’s why I quit that job. I want be with you and I want to spend as much time with you as I can.” I said.

“I’m glad you kept your paramedic job.” I said.

“Why’s that?” He asked.

“Because I can tell that you like that one.” I said.

“I love that job.” He said.

“You had three jobs?!” I asked.

“Had, yes.” He said.

“So what was your third job?” I asked while I moved so that I could get his hand kinda in my shirt, I wanted to feel him touch me because I loved what it was doing to me.

“I’m a certified and licensed massage therapist, but I stopped doing that.” He said while I tried to move more, but so that he wouldn’t notice what I was doing.

“Why did you stop doing that?” I asked.

“I didn’t like going two days in a row with no sleep.” He said right when I finally got his hand in my, well actually it was his shirt.

“Well, that makes sense.” I said while I let go of his hand a little and turned it so his palm was on my stomach and slid my fingers between his again.

“And now that you’re here I got to quit another job and now I can sleep more and spend time with you.” He said while he curled his fingers and straightening them so that he was like, caressing me there really really softly with just his fingertips.

“I can’t wait to get out of here and start my new life with you.” I said.

“It’ll be the life we were suppose to have.” He said while he started rubbing my stomach all over.

“You think we are suppose to be together?” I asked.

“Yes I do.” He said.

“I think we are suppose to be together too.” I said while I looked up at him.

“It only makes sense. I got engaged and she dies, which made me bridge over to CCT medic. Then I was on the unit that responded to your house when you got beaten within an inch of your life, and then I was dispatched to a transfer and it was you, you can’t tell me that all of that is just a coincidence.” He said giving me the chills.

“It’s not, mom said the same things you just said. It sucks that it had to happen the way it did and it hurt us both, but all of that brought us back together again.” I said.

“Only this time I’m not letting you go.” He said while he started to rub more of my stomach and not just that one spot.

“That feels really good.” I said while I kept looking up at him and smiled.

“Does it?” He asked making me bite my lip and nod yes.

“Then I’ll be doing this more.” He said while I tried to hide the fact that he was making me way way way horny.

He kept rubbing my stomach and would rub to just under my boobs, to my sides and right to my shorts. He was making me breath hard and I started to not be able to see all that good it was like there was a little bit of smoke in the room, but there really wasn’t. Remember when I got horny when I started to fantasize about him the night before? Well, I was like, a thousand times hornier now because he was actually touching my body the way he was. I was trying so so hard to pretend that he was making me feel relaxed, and he really was, but he was making me want to make love to him so bad that my skin kinda burned when he touched me, but in an amazing way. That ache that I got for the first time in my life the night before got so so bad that it was driving me crazy. It was like I couldn’t get my body against his enough.

But like I said, I didn’t know if he still believed that having sex before marriage was a huge sin or not. And I didn’t know if he had sex with his fiancé so I didn’t tell him how much he turned me on, I just pretended that he was making me fall asleep, which was hard because I was so wet that I felt all squishy and stuff, and I mean really squishy, it was even getting all over my legs! It didn’t help that I felt something push against my back at all, and it didn’t help that I knew that it was his dick for sure. I just closed my eyes and relaxed and enjoyed my boyfriends touch and smell. I sssooo did not want the night to end like, at all, I was actually sad that he had to leave. I didn’t want him to because I knew that I wouldn’t hear from him until I got out of the hospital in a week.

“Mason, it’s so good to see you, but I’m so sorry to do this to you guys, but visiting hours are over.” One of the workers said like she really didn’t want to tell him to leave.

“Fair enough, I’ll say good bye to her and I’ll be on my way.” Mason said.

“Thanks, we’ll see you again soon I’m sure.” She said.

“More than likely.” He said while we took our hands out of my shirt so she wouldn’t see that he was rubbing my body and like, setting me on fire.

She walked away and I got up and took his hands while he got up, and when I did, I looked at his bump. It was not small, at all! I got the biggest shivers and my mouth started to water when I saw that because now it was obvious to me that I made him horny too because the bump was way bigger than before. What is happening to me, I thought. I’ve never ever felt like I was feeling right then at all I mean, I was horny the night before and now I was so so beyond horny! I looked up to see if he caught me looking, I hoped he didn’t because I didn’t want him to know what he did to me, at least not yet. I walked him to the door and when we got there, I just had this really really strong need to feel my body against his. So I just like, walked up to him and pushed as much of my body against his as I could and looked up at him.

“Can you come and pick me up when I get out of here?” I asked while I pulled on the sides of his shirt so I could keep him against me.

“I already planned on it, so yes.” He said while he touched my face and tucked my hair behind my ear.

“Yay, I’m so so excited that we are together again.” I said.

“Yeah, me to, you’re so beautiful.” He said.

“When I get out I need to go shopping.” I said.

“What for?” He asked with a smile.

“Well, you like my boobs so I wanna get some tops that show them for you.” I said.

“Need money?” He asked.

“No I’ve got some.” I said while I giggled.

“No seriously, if you need money for that just let me know, I’ll be glad to help.” He said with a smile.

“I think you like the idea of me wearing immodest clothes.” I said while I laughed.

“You’re so beautiful that you’re a goddess, why wouldn’t I like seeing you in clothes like that?” He asked.

“So you’re saying that you’d like it then?” I asked.

“I wouldn’t be able to keep my hands off of you.” He said.

“Immodest clothes it is then.” I said.

“So what you’re saying is that you want me to have my hands all over you, is that about right?” He asked.

“Yes.” I said.

“Ok then, if you need money for any of that let me know, just know that there is a really high probability that I will not go shopping with you.” He said making me laugh.

“Don’t worry, I have friends that will go with me.” I said while I laughed.

“I better go, they’re staring at me.” He said.

“Ok.” I said while I stood on my toes and reached for him.

He leaned down and kissed me several times with no tongue, and I wanted tongue so I turned my head and slid my tongue in his mouth after I opened my mouth. I got what I wanted because he kinda picked me up with one arm and started to kiss me over and over again. After we stopped kissing, he put his head against mine and looked in my eyes while he lowered me and started to rub my face really softly.

“I love you forever baby, I’ll see you again soon.” He said.

“I love you always.” I said softly while I floated.

“Stay sexy ok?” He asked making me feel light headed.

“You stay sexy too. That means you don’t shave or cut this hair.” I said with a grin.

He kissed me a few times again before we said our goodbyes. I watched him walk out to the elevator before I went back to the lounge chair and just let myself fall back in it. I couldn’t stop smiling at all and I didn’t even realize that all of my friends came back in the lounge and were looking at me.

“You are glowing.” Roberta said.

“What? I’m sorry I didn’t hear what you said.” I said.

“You’re glowing.” She said.

“Yeah.” I said softly while I sat there and dreamt of my lover.

“Hello? Kaylee are you with us?” Denice asked while she laughed.

“Yeah, sorry.” I said while I looked at her.

“Do you need to take a cold shower?” Gina asked.

“Probably.” I said while I looked at them with the worlds biggest smile.

“You can’t even think, look at you.” Becca said.

“I can’t help it, I’m so so in love with him.” I said.

“He’s just as in love with you.” Denice said.

“You think so?” I asked.

“It’s pretty damn obvious. You guys are the cutest couple I’ve ever seen, I’m serious.” Denice said.

“Thanks.” I said.

A few minutes later, I went to my room since it was time for bed, and when I got in my room, I called my boyfriend and talked to him the whole time he drove home. I told him that I needed to take a shower and go to sleep since I had an appointment with my new therapist the next morning, which I did. I kissed my phone and he kissed his before we hung up, and that’s when I took a selfie of me wearing his uniform shirt and I made sure it showed my bra and boobs then I sent that to him. I couldn’t believe that I was actually doing that, but I did because I wanted him to want me as bad as I wanted him. After my bath, I got dressed for the most part and while I was laying there, I masturbated again because I really really needed to after tasting my lover and feeling his body against mine. I didn’t even watch porn that night, I didn’t need to because my lover gave me plenty of things to think about with the feelings that I had for him. I fantasized that I took him to my room and took his dick out while I looked in his eyes while he started taking his shirt off for me. I fantasized that I gave him a long blow job and he ate me out before I pushed him on his back and made love to him all slow and passionately. Remember my first orgasm? That was nothing compared to the one I had that night, not even close. It was so so good that I swore I was going to pass out, only this time I had a towel under me so that I wouldn’t mess my sheets up, and yes I used my toy.

When I got done, I took my towel off of my bed and cleaned my toy off before putting it away. It didn’t matter what I did, I could not stop thinking about him at all, it was impossible. That’s when I realized that I was happier than I had been in so many years. I was happy and I so so did not feel like I didn’t deserved Mason anymore. That man made me happy, he always made me happy and because of all of that, I knew for a fact that mom was right. She wasn’t psychic at all, but somehow she knew that Mason and I would be together. She believed it so much that she pushed me to find him, she stayed on my butt to make sure I was looking for him. I had some serious doubts that we were suppose to be together like mom said we were because I couldn’t find him. I thought she was crazy, I thought that there might be something wrong with her. But while I laid there thinking about it, I realized that mom wasn’t so crazy after all, she was right, she knew and she didn’t doubt it for a second.

I laid there and thought about everything I went through, and I realized that every time something drastically bad happened to me, Mason would all of a sudden be right there. He was there when I was almost killed and he was there after I tried to kill myself, and since my last drastic episode, he’s hasn’t left me and he’s done everything he can to make sure that he was there for me. He fought for me this time, he fought hard to make sure that he could be with me. I mean, he quit his hospital job just so he could be with me, he bought my knew phone for me so he could talk to me, and he came to see me when he could. And to top it off, he wanted the exact same thing that I wanted, which was for us to be together again like we were when I was 14 and when he was 18, and now here we were. We were courting again. Coincidence? I didn’t think so anymore, I think it was fate, it was destiny. We were meant for each other and we were suppose to be together and I no longer doubted that at all. I mean, how else would you explain everything that happened to us. My beatings and me almost killing myself, to his fiancé getting killed and him becoming a paramedic, and he just happened to be the one who saved my life not once, but twice. Yeah, my mom was definitely right, I had no doubt about that anymore, none at all. I don’t think you’ll ever understand how happy I was about all of that. I cried myself to sleep that night, but this time, it wasn’t because I was depressed and sad, it was because I was way beyond happy!

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