Truths and Betrayals of a Young Man’s Heart Chapter 5
Introduction:
A night of love and passion, at week later of healing
We talk about this coming Saturday, she tells me she can’t wait to see what I have planned us. I tell her it will be a night she will never forget. Mina gives me a big bright smile ear to ear, with her arms wrapped around me she pushes me back on the bed cuddling up close to me. My arms are around her in no time at all. Mina’s body next to mine feels so wonderful and sweet. Were just talking about our future together. Within the next four days I gather up all I need after school each day. I don’t let the Mina find out what all I have planned. Mom seems worried about something, but doesn’t say anything.
Wednesday I am at the gym and Aaron has me on the leg press and counting. He is encouraging me to keep going. I am at 20 when there is a clear throat sound. I turn my head and notice Uncle Damien standing a few steps away. Aaron notices and has me stop for a few and helps me stand up. Uncle Damien steps up to me and just notices the change. We sit on a bench and he starts telling me how proud he was of me. I ask him how he knew and he states that mom called him last week. He said she thought he needed to know that I was back home and working things out. I told him the working things out was not so easy. He gives me a look of concern and is quiet for a few minutes then he gets a serious look.
” Alex remember the movie Highlander 2, that movie we watched last summer?” He asked me staring in my eyes
” Yes what about it?” I answered wondering what he was getting at
” Remember that one scene where Ramirez is beginning to hold up the big fan from coming down on him, Conner, and the woman?” He asked with a grin
” Yes I do, what you getting at?” I stated to him
” I am getting at what was it Ramirez said to Conner?” Uncle Damien replied intently
I sat there looking at his face and then Aaron who was on a bench across from us. I thought of that scene and replayed it in my head. At that moment my eyes go wide and my heart beats stronger. I look deep in my uncle’s eyes and see him smiling.
” He said….Most people have a full measure of life..and most people just watch it drip away. But if you can summon it all up…at one time…in one place….you can accomplish something….glorious.” I quoted to him word for word
” Exactly, Alex when you think the moment you feel all is going down hill. And that exact moment feels grim reach deep down inside yourself and summon what you have in you. Bring it out in that one moment in time in that place you need it the most and you will be glorious.” He explained to me smiling
I glanced at my uncle and at Aaron who was agreeing with him. He also told me to remember what my Grandma Cartwright would always tell me ‘ Never let anyone or anything get me down’ I nodded my head and gave him a grin saying I won’t forget. Although as of late I have. Aaron told me to get back to my work out because I still had my martial arts to do. I did as he asked and went to finish my leg press. I glanced to see both Aaron and my Uncle Damien talking like they knew each other. Which I found out they did it seems they been friends for years. The hour past and Aaron was having me do a few techniques that he showed me. Aaron told me gratz on learning them quickly and performing them on the money. When I got home that night I felt different. I don’t know if it was the work out, training, or what my Uncle Damien was explaining to me, but I felt good.
Friday goes by okay I get shoved into my locker a few times , but I just shrug them off. After my last class I am at my locker and just opened it. A note fell out and I leaned down and picked it up. I look both ways down the hall wondering who could of put the note in my locker. I open the note and read. What I read shocks me. Someone wanted to make me prepared for Saturday night. The note read.
Alex
You don’t know me that well, I don’t like the way David has been treating you. So I am giving you a warning. I over heard him talking in the locker room saying he plans to get pictures of Mina and sell them to a few guys. He wants to also get Mina in your bed so be cautious. I hope this can be a start at trusting me. I will keep my ears open and let you know of what is to come. Sincerely a Hopeful friend
I reread it a few times and thought of how I could use this against David. The thought of him getting to Mina and Maxine didn’t settle well with me. Then I had a idea, I shut my locker and went to the nearest pay phone and made a call. The phone rang a few times until my friend picked up. I told him what I found and what it said. He listened and told me to make sure the doors were locked and curtains pulled together. I told him I would and he replied he would be around and watch my house especially. We hung up saying our goodbyes. I went to my car and waited for Mina and Maxine. After a few minutes they both came coming out the doors and towards my car. Once they were up to me I gave Mina a big hug and a passionate kiss. She asked me why the big attention. I told her it was a long day and felt I needed to hug and kiss her so much. Mina just gave me a sweet smile. I didn’t want to alarm her of what I was informed of , I wanted to keep Mina safe and protected from David. I wasn’t going to let him get his way. We all three got in my car and made our way to my house. Mina asked if I wanted her to stay the night. Looking at her I gave her a nod yes in return Mina gave me a smile. Maxine asked me to drop her off at her house because she had a date tomorrow. Mina and I looked at each other and then at Maxine and asked with who. Maxine responded and said it was with Will. Will was the guy that was her date at the school dance. I told her no problem and then I told her that Will better not hurt her and she said he wouldn’t. I dropped her of after she gave Mina and I a hug and told us she would see us Monday. Mina and I got to my house awhile later and was in my room talking and getting what homework we had to do done so the weekend would just be about us. Around 6 p.m. mom yelled that dinner was ready and I took Mina’s hand. We both walked hand and hand down to the kitchen only to find Russ in the chair by mom. I helped Mina into her chair and then I sat in mine. Food was passed around and we all started in eating. There was talking about this and that. Mom brought up that Russ was taking her out tomorrow night and she wouldn’t be home until late. I thought of the note I had found opening my locker. At that moment I thought it would be good that both Russ and Mom wasn’t here tomorrow night for what was going to happen. I lowered my head to hide my grin so no one could see.
It’s Valentine’s Day and I wake up feeling a soft, warm body next to me. I turn my head to see Mina snuggled up to me with her right arm over my chest. She is breathing softly. I feel my bladder telling me to get up and go. I slowly and quietly get out of bed to not wakeup Mina. Finally in the bathroom I do my business then at the sink I wash my hands. I get a crazy thought and look in the mirror and see myself reflection smiling. I walk softly back in the bedroom and slowly crawl up towards Mina. She is sleeping so peacefully that I hate to wake her. But then again it is Valentine’s Day. I give myself a soft chuckle and pull the cover down and off her. She is on her back and her legs are spread enough for my crazy idea of waking her up. I extend my left hand and with my index finger I softly start rubbing her slit up and down. Her slit is soft to my touch. I see her move a bit and it’s her legs that she spreads more apart. I get between her legs and position my mouth on her labia and start licking up and down each side. I hear her give out a soft moan. I keep looking up above her mound and soft pubic hair and see she still asleep. I open her sweet tasting lower lips and work my tongue in. Her entrance of her love canal is warm and wet. I get a good taste of her juices that are starting to flow. I can hear her breathing getting a bit deeper. She gives another soft moan that makes me know I am making her start feeling good. My tongue slides in nicely and I curl the tip of my tongue upward. I can feel a spot that seems to working her up.
Mina is panting and giving of moans as my tongue keeps it’s attack up inside her. I extend my hands up and start massaging her breast. Her nipples are hard and erect. My advances are making her body react wonderfully. I move my thumb to her clit and start softly rubbing it in circles. She’s giving me moans that get a little loud. I get a bit of a shock when a feel a spray come from her and I smile. Mina just squirted on my face and the smell is heavenly. I get a thought and go with it. I get up on my knees and take my manhood in my right hand and line myself up. I slide the head of my dick inside her pussy and start making love to her. She gives out a moan as i’m thrusting in and out of her working more inside. I feel her legs wrap around me and glance down at her face. I see her eyes and a smile. I lean over while still inside and prop myself up with my hands. She reaches up and pulls my face down to her and kisses me passionately. I’m so into her that I increase my pace. She’s moaning into my mouth while our tongues are playing. Mina starts grinding her hips up into mine. Her arms are around me as she brings me down close. We are both moaning into each other’s ears.
” Baby….oh fuck.” Mina says moaning softly
” Yes?” I groaned
” Faster….oh shit….harder..pleaseeeee.” She moans more into my ear
I get back up on my knees and bring her legs up and start pounding faster and harder in and out of her sweet valley of love. She has her hands on my ass pulling me deeper. Mina is so into the moment shes grinding faster on up on me.
” Baby…I’m..I’m…cumminggg.” Mina tells me with a moan
I feel my own orgasm coming. I look down in her eyes and see pure love and desire.
” So…am…I.” I moan letting her know
” Oh yesss….baby….cum deep in me.” My lovely Asian tells me moaning
Exactly at that moment Mina and I cum at the same time. She gushes on my cock and balls and my thighs get wet. Our bodies tighten up and she pulls me deep into her so my cum goes deep inside her. After a few minutes I collapse on top of her. Our breathing is heavy and were both panting. She wraps her arms around me and runs her fingers through my hair. She tells me that she loves me deeply and unconditionally. I reply telling her the same and always. after just a few moments I am off her and Mina is snuggled up to me.
” Baby, that was a wonderful way to wake me up.” Mina tells me smiling
” Well I had this crazy thought of how to wake you up and that was it.” I explain to Mina
Mina reaches up and caresses my face. With a big smile on her face she tells me I can always wake her up like that anytime. Mina gets on top of my chest and gives me kisses all along my lips and face, She presses her breast against my chest. She stays like that for a few moments until she feels how wet she is between her legs. Mina suggest we take a shower and dress for the day. I agree with her and we get up. The shower is nice, we mostly tease each other. I rub my manhood on her sexy ass. And she grinds her mound on my dick. After we shower and dry we dress and go down and find mom and Russ at the table sipping on their coffee. I tell Mina go ahead and take a seat. I go and get us some coffee and get in the chair next to her. Mom gives us a few glances and then says that must of been one heck of a alarm clock to Mina. Mina gives her a smile as she blushes. Russ gives Mina a look that I didn’t really like. I gave him a look that could say ‘ Back Off’. He stops glancing at Mina and looks away. It’s around 1 p.m. when Mina says she wants to go get me something special. I tell her she all I need which gives me a smile on her beautiful face. I tell her ok and let her use my car. She asked me if I was sure and I gave her a kiss as my answer. She gets her purse and I had her my keys. We kiss and she leaves, as I watch her drive off I shut the front door and start getting my room ready which I should say OUR room , because she has basically moved in which I am happy. I run up to the bedroom and begin. I have the candles in place, the rose petals scattered around the bed and the floor. I place a ring box on her side of the bed and smile. I look around to make sure things are right and then I shut the curtains. I think for a moment then go outside to make sure no one can see inside. I look closely and see there are no way anyone can see in. I get back inside and into the quest room. I get the 2 dozen roses I bought Thursday and see they still beautiful. I place 1 dozen on the kitchen table for mom ( Yeah I know what your thinking why she hurt you, That maybe but she still my mom. Even with all the hurt that the one thing I can’t ignore). I go into my bedroom and place the other dozen on Mina’s side of the bed next to the small ring box. I get down into the living room and watch t.v. and wait.
Around 5 p.m. mom comes into my bedroom with a big smile on her face. She saw her roses and gives me a big hug and kiss on my cheek. She tells me what I did meant a lot to her and thanked me. She told me her and I would have a talk soon about all that I have been through, and she wants to know why I left. Seems she has been confused the past months from my letter I left. I told her that would be nice and she gives me another kiss on the cheek and leaves my bedroom so I can to last minute fixing up. At 7 p.m. Mom and Russ leave as Mina returns. She is beautifully dressed really nice and I am in awe. Mina is wearing a silver looking evening dress with no straps, she walked up to me carrying bags that looked like take out. I asked her about the bags, just gives me a evil grin and say she wanted to have plenty of love making time and dinner would take too long to cook. I don’t argue with my lovely Asian , because she is right. I help with the few bags and let her walk in first and shut the door behind me as I step in.
Dinner was nice with Mina feeding me and I her. After we cleaned the coffee table off , Mina went over to the stereo by the entertainment center and put a cassette in and pushed play. I listened and it was the music from her and my first night as a couple . Mina grabbed my hands and pulled me up. We pushed the coffee table up against the couch and started to slow dancing. With Mina’s arms around me. I placed my hands on Mina’s sexy ass. The music was slow and soft the words echoing in the room. Mina is grinding her crotch against mine. Mina is working on me so good. I am starting to grind back. I am hearing her moan softly against my neck. Mina looks up in my eyes and starts unbuttoning my shirt. Once my shirt is off she starts running her hands up and down my chest, I let out a moan to what to what my beautiful love is doing to me. Mina places her head on my shoulder and whispers in my ear. She saying dirty little things to me. Like if I want her to lick me from my neck all the way down to my dick. I give her my answer by kissing her sweet, soft lips. She gives me a smile and starts kissing my neck then she works her way down. At my chest she traces her tongue from one side to the other. From there she goes down to my belly button. I have goose bumps as she does all this. Once she gets to the top of my jeans she is on her knees. She gives me a smile looking up at me. The next thing that I see is my belt being pulled off. My jeans get undone and to my amazement she uses her lips to unzip them
She takes the sides of my jeans in her fingers and slides them down. I step out of them and smile. She sees I has no underwear on and smiles big. She stands up and comes close to me. With my manhood in one hand she starts stroking me. With the other she caresses my balls. The whole time smiling. She asks me to unzip her dress for my one of my gifts for the night. I reach behind her and start un zipping her dress. Once unzip I see my gift, she is totally naked underneath. I also see she trimmed her pubic hair and she has a design that is a A. I give her a smile and a kiss.
In my bedroom Mina is between my legs working on my cock. Her mouth is so warm and wet that I am so enjoying this moment. She’s stroking what’s not in her mouth. Her tongue is twirling around the head and under. I feel my balls being massaged gracefully. She has over half of me gone and working on getting the rest. I lay back and enjoy her love making on my manhood. Her pace is amazing. She is bringing me to a point of no return. I place my hands on her head and run my fingers through her hair. I can feel her try to smile, but she focusing on my pleasure. She gives my balls a light squeeze and I give her a moan. She wants my love seed which is only for her. I start the move my hips up and down. She follows my thrust so she doesn’t gag. the moment comes and my balls feel like they are tightening. My cock is throbbing in her sweet loving mouth. I take my hands off her head and on the bed. I grip the sheets as I feel it coming. My body tenses up as I feel my balls tingle.
” Mina.” I moan letting her know
She just keeps going, but nods her head. I feel my seed starting to flow. I arch my back and tilt my head. I am erupting in her mouth and down her throat. I can’t help but moan loudly as she eases off to get all of it. As I feel the last of my gift to her leave me she milks me further until the last drop is gone. She stops and raises her head. She gets up and crawls up to me. She opens her mouth and shows all that she captured before swallowing all that is hers. She leans down and gives me a kiss. After a bit she lays next to me so I can catch my breath. She asks how I felt. I tell her amazing. She smiles and massages my chest. Mina comments on how good my body looks. My muscles are hard, my chest looking bulk. She raises up and kiss over my heart. That is when I think she sees the roses and small ring box. She crawls over to the pillow they are on and picks up the roses. She smells them and tells me they are beautiful. I tell her she is worth everything to me. She puts them down and picks up the ring box. I see a confused look in her eyes.
” Ok I can see the confused look on your face.” I tell them with a grin
” Sorry baby ….but this looks like a ring box.”Mina tells me confirming what the boxes actually are then adds” Honey are you sure were at that place in our relationship?”
I give her a smile and tell her not yet but soon. She gives me a smile and agrees with me.
” Mina , what’s in that box is just a small symbol of my love, loyalty, caring, and devotion to you.” I exclaim to her getting a smile
.She opens the small ring box. Once open she gives a small gasp and covers her mouth with one hand. In the box was a necklace. I pulled it out showing her. Hanging from my finger was a heart. Mina reached out with her hand to look closely. She started reading the inscription I had put on it. I saw her eyes get watery and a few tears started to fall. She looked into my eyes as to see my soul. Mina came to me and hug me tightly. After the hug she read it again. Mina looked in my eyes and spoke what the engraving said.
” You hold my heart, always keep me guarded. You hold my soul, always guide me. Awww baby I love it thank you.” with a loving smile Mina said
Mina asked me to put it on her so I did. She handed the necklace to me and I opened the clasp. She turned around and I placed the necklace around her neck and hooked the clasp back. She looked at it and smiled. She turned her head and have me a kiss. I reached around her and placed my hands on each of her breast. I massaged her nipples between two fingers. She let out a moan. I started kissing her neck from one side to the next. Next she reached up and placed her right hand on my head. Running her fingers through my hair. With her other hand she reached down and slowly massaged her clit and slit. I scooted a little more against her with my manhood between her sexy ass cheeks. We both let out a moan. She rubbed her clit a bit faster. She was breathing heavy. Her eyes were closed softly. She was warm against me, her body felt so soft against mine. Mina tilted her head back against my left shoulder and we kissed deeply and passionately. I kept up on massaging her nipples, she loved them played with. Our kiss was so powerful for the next thing I knew she moaned so loud that she came so strong. She told me she needed me inside her now. She leaned over placing her head on the pillow. She had her sexy ass up for me. I reached down and positioned my cock at her entrance and with one thrust entered her. We both let out a moan and enjoyed the sensation between us. Me inside her and her around my manhood. I placed my hands on her hips and started making love to her. She was so wet it felt nice. Her pussy would clamp down on me every so often.
” Oh baby…..fuck me….yessssss.” Mina loudly proclaimed to me
I obliged her increasing my pace. It was heavenly feeling our love come together as one. Like pure energy flowing through us. She was moaning my name ‘ Alex ‘. And I hers ‘ Mina ‘. She was going back and forth on my dick. My body felt strong and kept up with my lovely Mina. We were as one now feeling what the other wanted. She tiled her head back and looked into my eyes and all I could see was love for me. My thrust were faster and harder. I could feel my release coming.
” Minaaaa.” I moaned to her
” Yessss…..oh god…..cum in me….” My love moaned loudly then added” Oh god…I’m gonna….cum…again.”
At that exact moment we both came together. She gushed strongly and I erupted deep inside pulling her back onto me. My love seed going so deep inside her. She moaned feeling my love for her. After she came her body went limp from the strain. I landed on her back and rolled off with my dick coming out of her with a ‘ pop ‘ noise. We just laid there catching our breaths. I looked at her face. Her hair was a mess and she had sweat coming off her as I did. But through all our love making she was still so beautiful. After a few moments she moved up against me and snuggled.
It was about 11:30 p.m. when there came a loud knock on the front door. I got up and told Mina and Maxine to stay. I put my jeans back on and walked down to answer the door. Once there I opened it and saw David and Sheriff Aaron my friend. He told me that David was trying to take pictures from a tree that was outside my bedroom window. I acted shocked and upset. I knew he didn’t see anything because my curtains were closed. Aaron asked what I wanted to do. I looked at David and saw he had a scared look on his face. I could tell Aaron was hiding a chuckle . David asked how did he know tonight to come through here at this time of night ( Yes how did Sheriff Aaron know uh guess he will never know haha). The sheriff simply told him that he had calls from neighbors saying a tall suspicious looking young man was peeping. David gave him a wide eyed look and jaw drop. I looked at Sheriff Connors and said if David learned his listen and promised not to do any of that again to let him go. David nodded his head yes looking like a bobble head on a dash board. Sheriff Connors said he had to take him downtown for about a hour then let him go. David just gave him a astonish look , but didn’t try to argue. David knew he done wrong which I was now hiding a chuckle, because the look on his face was priceless. At that time Mina came up behind me and to my side wearing long shirt and short. Mina asked what was going on and I told her David was up to some bad peeping and she gave him a few angry looks. Sheriff Connors ( Aaron) told us his apologies for interrupting us and took David to his squad car. David held his head down the whole time. I shut the door after seeing the car drive off. I turned and offered my arm to Mina and she took it. We went back up to our room. She thought best we change the sheets for dry ones. After the sheets were changed the both of us got settled in bed and laid there kissing each other and massaging each others backs. I glanced at the clock to see Mom would be home soon and then I thought Russ would be with her. I had a idea if he did. I told Mina and she laughed. My idea was if he and mom made noises we would to , but only to out do them. It was 1:30 a.m. when I looked and there was no noises or sounds. Mina and I were already asleep with a smile on our faces.
The week goes by and it’s Friday evening and I’m in my chair at 6 p.m. watching some t.v. My mom’s in the kitchen with Russ talking about work. David unfortunately is on the couch watching the t.v. also. He keeps eye balling me like he has something to talk about. I try to not look at him at all, but it’s hard when my chair is in the direction it is. I take a sip of my Dr. pepper and wish Mina were here, but something inside me told me not as long as David was here. Mina told me she was going to spend a little time with her dad and mom and would see me tomorrow. I told her okay. I set my Dr. pepper on the coffee table and get comfy in my chair with my arms on the side. David stares at me then speaks to me.
” Hey Alex why don’t you bring Mina around anymore, she not doing it for you? Oh wait, you don’t do it for girls I forgot.” David in a sarcasm tone said
” What.” I am in shock responding to his comment
” I mean I was nailing the shit out of Trina for months and now you’re worried I’ll be nailing Mina too.” He was telling me in a explaining way
I was sitting there feeling his words cutting me. He was telling me things that I didn’t want to hear..
” I could get the ethnic threesome, Why not call her over I mean we could redo the night you caught me with Trina only have Mina sub in and I’ll let you watch this time minus the ass kicking..” He exclaimed to me giving me a wide eyed look
He saw my face turning red and was just smiling at me. I was feeling the cuts getting deeper and deeper. I know I was training everyday and getting stronger but he still was bigger. Everything I thought to say would just go through one of his ears and out the other. He kept looking at me and chimed in again.
” Oh don’t get offended it’s just me letting you the little guy have some real fun. big dog leaving scraps for the pup.” cutting me more he said smiling at me
I sat there feeling like a knife cutting me in half. All he was doing was smiling and chuckling at me. I looked at the floor and thought why was he saying this shit. I know I have been training the past few weeks, but at that moment I knew my mind and body wasn’t ready to fight him. I looked in the kitchen and saw Russ and Mom listening . Mom had a look on her face of concern for me. I could feel tears welling up in side my eyes. I stood up and went to get my jacket. I went back down and to the front door. I saw they all three looking at me. Mom still concerned for me started to walk toward me until Russ stopped her. I turned to David who was smiling and then he spoke again.
” Aww what wrong with the little pup.” He mocking me said
I opened the door and left again. I should of known things wouldn’t of changed around here. I got to walking down the sidewalk not looking back. I put my head phones on and turned the volume up so I couldn’t hear anything but my music. I didn’t look back, I should of known it would still be the same. I just kept walking towards where I should of stayed this whole time. Well this time around I don’t think a return would be in my future.
Terra’s POV
I just saw my son go out the door. The things David was saying to him was the reason why. I started to walk out the kitchen to go after Alex until Russ grabbed my arm. I turned and saw his face had a serious look.
” Where you going Terra?” Russ asked me in a calm voice
” I need to find my son.” I told him In a stressed way
” No you need to deal with the now. Now you have a man in your home and he wants his damn meal.” He was telling me irate
I looked at him wide eyed and shocked. He kept talking with a fierce tone.
” That ungrateful little shit wants to leave let him. He needs to toughen up look at David.” Russ said turning me around towards the living room
I looked at David the one person that drove my son away. My son who I told I would always be there for.
” David just needs a little love in his life and that’s what you need to give him.” He was telling me still squeezing my arm
I could never love his son. I had my own son to love . I gave life to Alex and promised to care for him and love him. I shook my head I needed to find my son.
” Alex is a baby and you’re babying of him is why he is off crying. Let him deal with the cold and get dinner on the table.” he said in a instructive tone
He pushed me over to the stove and sat back down. He called David over to the table so they could talk about how things were going to be for now on. I got to the stove and stood there. How could I of been a fool. All these month’s of being with Russ as cost me something so dear to me. My own son, the son I raised with Chad until his accident. I placed my hand in the big iron skillet. I grabbed it tight, the handle was solid iron. I knew what I had to do , my love for my son was beating in my heart. Remembering his first words being mama. That made me realize I have let my son down and I had to get him back. I heard Russ telling me to get a move on and get dinner done. I gripped the skillet tighter. I turned and raised it up and brought it down hard on the table in front of them. They both jumped up and stepped back. Russ asked what has gotten into me.
” You expect me to forget my son and accept David. You got some nerve you bastard.” I yelled at Russ
” Terra calm down we can talk this over.” He told me with a scared look
David moved away and into the living just watching. I stepped a little closer and brought the skillet down on the table hard again.
” Alex is MY son you hear me asshole, MY son. And no one is going to put him down again.” I was shaking as I yelled
Russ moved into the living room not far from David. They both had looks that had a hint of fear.
” Russ because of your precious little David were through, done, finished. Get the fuck out of my house.” I demanded telling him
” Terra wait lets be real here.” He started to say until I slammed the iron skillet on the wall
” That first date you asked me on , I should of never went. That night was Alex and My bonding night. He had everything set up a big bowl of popcorn. I hurt him that first night I went on a date with you.” I was telling him with anger
” How do you know it was then?” Russ asked with a hint of disappointment
” I came home and went in the kitchen to find popcorn in the trash. I went to my chair and sat glanced over at the entertainment center and saw a few under it.” I explained bitterly
He just stood there, I guess he thought things were cooling off but they weren’t. I hit the wall again.
” I SAID GET THE FUCK OUT AND DON’T EVER COME BACK.” I screamed at the top of my lungs
They stood there for a moment and I took a step towards them and again slammed the Iron skillet at the wall. They got to the front door with me following them with anger. I could feel my heart beating fast. I stood in the doorway and saw both of them get in their cars and drive off. I backed up into the foyer and slammed the door and locked it. I went to the couch and sat. I was in my thoughts hoping Alex would come home. All this time why didn’t I see what my son was going through? And why didn’t I see how Russ felt about my Alex? I have been such a fool. I just stayed on the couch still gripping the skillet , I let it go but set it by me just incase. I looked at the clock and it only been thirty minutes. I thought id give Alex time to get back home after he cooled down. I leaned forward and put my head in my hands. The past months filled my head. That first date I had the look on Alex’s face had hurt. Halloween when he said his peace. Then Thanksgiving. I thought then it hit me oh god I have betrayed him. At that moment I felt tears in my hands. My tears started to come. I looked up and saw a hour had went already. I thought of the times Mina told me of meeting Alex at a park. I stood up and wiped my tears away and walked over to the stand by the foyer. I put my coat on and grabbed my keys and purse. I made sure the house was locked when I walked out.
I pulled up and parked my car at the place Mina told me about. It was a small park but had woods near it. I started walking in the woods, I was glad I had a flashlight in my car because it was getting dark and I didn’t know how long I would be out here. I wasn’t going to leave without my son. I yelled for him saying his name. Yelling please come home don’t leave me. I was pouring my heart out for him.
” ALEX PLEASE COME HOME DON’T LEAVE ME AGAIN.” I was yelling so hard to him
I don’t know how long I was out here when I turned my flashlight on. I could see the lights of the park so I knew which way to return to my car. It was getting a bit colder , but I kept yelling for him. Telling my son how much I was sorry and needed him in my life as I wanted to be in his. I looked at my watch and it had been 2 hours. I stood in one spot and got to my knees feeling so cold I shut the flashlight off and just sat on my feet. My head in my hands and crying. I looked up into the trees and sky and Yelled again.
” ALEX I LOVE YOU MY LOVING SON PLEASE DON’T LEAVE ME I NEED YOU ALEX IN MY LIFE.” I yelled so loud
I just stayed there in the dark when I heard what sounded like a twig break. I didn’t move because it may of been Russ or David to come after me. But I knew I had to find out in case I had to run. I picked up my flashlight and stood up and turned. The light shined the the person’s face. The next thing I heard was mom. I aimed the light down towards the ground and saw my son standing about 7 feet away from me. He had a sad look on his face. I started to walk to him but he backed up. I stopped and went wide eyed. I asked him why he was backing away from me. He responded he didn’t know who I was any more. He kept on telling me how I betrayed him by letting David and Trina in the house, and how I got with some guy just after a month and a half after his father died, and how the same guy who was a moron started telling me what to do and wouldn’t let me be there for my son. I listened to all this and started to see what looked like tears showing down his face. He said to me he wanted his true mother back. I responded I was that mother that loved him and asked how I could show him. He told me just be the mother he knew, the mother that spent Saturday nights watching movies with him, for me to be the mother that cooked his favorite meal, just be the mother that said she would always be there for him, then the next thing he said really hit my heart and deep to my soul.
” JUST BE MY MOM THAT I HAVE MISSED FOR SO LONG.” He yelled before going to his knees
I ran to him and got onto my knees and held him in my arms.
” Just be the mom I grew up to love, I want her back not the one I returned to she wasn’t her.” He was telling me with tears then added ” I have felt unwanted by you I want my mom back please love me mom please.”
Oh god I have hurt him so much that I had tears falling down my face. I held him so close to me and cradled his head to my shoulder. Next I felt him do the same to me.
” Oh Alex I am so sorry please forgive me I will never ever let you down again, just please be my son I have missed so much. Never leave me again. Watching you leave hurt me so much I tried to come after you, but Russ stopped me. But not anymore I kicked him out for good. I told him we were done , finished. You are more important. Oh god Alex I have missed you.” I exclaimed deeply holding him very close to me
” You..you did.” Alex softly asked
” Yes Alex I did, he was telling me to let you go and give my love for you to David. I stood up and said no. YOU are MY son no one else. I shall cherish this moment forth with you, Alex I love you son.” I told him crying
We stayed like that until it was freezing to us both. He suggested we get home and out of the cold. I agreed and we helped each other up. After 45 minutes we were home and sitting on the couch warming up. We were cuddled up sitting on the couch. We were silent for a bit until a idea came to me. I suggested we go on vacation during Spring break away from here. I told him it would be him, Mina, and I. He said that would be awesome and it give us time to heal and make our bond stronger. I told him I was done with men. He looked in my eyes and said but mom i’m a man. I told him he was different that he was my son who I would always be around and he smiled when I said that. We stayed on the couch with the t.v. on now. It was a movie that we both enjoyed. After about thirty minutes I glanced to see his eyes closing. I held him close to me and felt his arms pulling me close to him. I looked at him and had to tell him.
” I love you my loving son Alex.” I said with a few tears
” I love you my loving Mother……I forgive you.” He told me drifting off to sleep
I laid there listening to those words he spoke and fell asleep with a smile knowing I had my son back and he had his mother back in his life. I couldn’t wait until Spring Break to spend time with him and hopefully my future daughter-n-law.
