To start off I should probably give a bit of an explanation. I am writing these stories as a way to get them out of my system. I have just started having an affair (just calling it what it is really) with my closest friend/mentor.
I am in a relationship and he is married and what I had though may make it a little harder is that I know his wife and I like her an would also consider her a friend.

I met my friend around about a year ago now he was introduced by a mutual friend, we got close quite quickly which I know some people found odd to begin with as he is 20 years older than me. He has become a large part of my life and is my closest and most trusted friend and a mentor in my life .

Their had always been an attraction there but I didn’t think either of us would ever act on it, we chat via text message every day and one day I noticed our messages seemed to be a little sexually charged, not out and out sexual just pushing the boundaries a little. We had arranged to go out for the day, which is not an unusual occurrence but for some reason this time it felt different, like we were making sure it would just be the two of us.

So we met up and decided to go for a walk in a local wildlife park, while walking around our conversation started off normal but seemed to slowly drift back into that boundary pushing, sexually charged way it had been in the messages a few days before. The sexual tension was undeniable now.

As I have said there is a large age gap between us but that doesn’t matter, he is a very attractive older man, with a witty personality and a devilish smile. Of course the idea of a what if had flitted across my mind before but I had always laughed it off as a random thought but this day was different, the suspense was in the air and I had no idea why. We would have a completely normal chat then it would change and no matter how many times I tried to bring it back to the light hearted conversation it would always drift back and it wasn’t just that he was doing it I noticed myself doing it too.

Eventually we decided to sit for a while, that’s when the conversation took a whole new level, we began to talk about tantric sex and soul sex, which is something I have wanted to try for a while but my current partner is not comfortable with. Then he said it, he told me that he had thought of us doing this together, I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, my head began to spin and I could no longer speak. He asked me what I thought, I can’t remember exactly now but I think I just nodded my head. I could tell he was a little worried as to how I had taken this, so I made sure to tell him it hadn’t made me uncomfortable or upset.

I know I kept going quiet for what seemed like forever but my brain just wouldn’t engage, I agreed that I wanted to do this too, as I said before I wanted to try it and he is an attractive man who I trust completely. I had to make my brain engage as we hade to go over ground rules so to speak, just the basic we don’t tell anyone, we don’t hold it over each other and we are not starting a relationship but neither are we just fucking, it is a spiritual and enlightening experience.

We spoke for a while and made our agreement. Then we moved to somewhere a little more private (as private as you can get outside) and again I froze I kept trying to shake myself back to normal I know that my brain was going so fast I can’t even remember now what I was thinking. I know that I kept saying that I wasn’t as uncomfortable as I seemed, which was true I wasn’t I wanted to do this so I knew I just had to go with it and trust that I would relax.

We did not have sex that day but we did experience each other in a way we never had before.

He put his hands on my sides and began to stroke, I was still trying to relax so I just stood there avoiding looking him in the eye. When we kissed I felt the tension I was feeling begin to fade, I did struggle to find my rhythm at first but I got there. I could feel his hands running over my body through my top and I began to let my hands roam over his sides but still I didn’t know how far to go, I didn’t want to touch him or do anything that was too much and I was very conscious of this. He eventually moved my hand to his arse and I realised that I wasn’t going to go too far, I squeezed and stroked his body as his hands moved over mine, finally resting on my chest, as he began to squeeze and stroke I was now feeling very relaxed. He spent some time just touching and rubbing then when he finally removed my bra and took one of my nipples into his mouth my head began to swim, partly with the sensation and partly with the thought that I had my friend sucking on my tits as i ran my hands through his hair.Then his hand began to work its way Into my waistband and I could feel his fingers running up and down my inner thighs and eventually inside my underwear. I moved my hand from stroking and scratching his body down to feel his hardening cock through his shorts, I then felt his finger find my clit and he gently stroked and rubbed as I squeezed his cock more firmly, again my head was swimming and both of our breaths had become more ragged, I felt like my legs were going to give way which I’m guessing he sensed as he had me lie down on his jacket.

As I lay down I felt a little self conscious as he now had a pretty good view of my body, it quickly left when he went back to sucking and licking my nipples and his hand found its way back to my clit. I wanted to get his cock out but again I didn’t want to go too far (which I know sounds crazy as he was currently stroking my clit) again he must have sensed this as he undone his shorts and I reached out for his cock. I started to run my hand up and down his shaft. He began to rub my clit faster and with more purpose now, I could feel myself getting close but would pull myself back as I was a little self conscious as I can be quite noisy. His breathing was ragged and he was letting out small noises which turned me on massively, each time he let out a noise it pushed me to the point of almost cumming. I held on as I worked my hand up and down his shaft, then he slipped his fingers inside me, I almost came instantly and had to really control myself, I have always loved that sensation but something about the way he was doing it was different to what I had experienced before and again my head was swimming, kissing and licking each other as we went, I do have one regret as while I was stroking his cock and he was bringing me ever closer to cumming I wanted to take his cock into my mouth but I didn’t, I thought so much about just reaching out and licking the tip and sucking it throbbing into my throat but I again was worried about pushing things too far. So I kept stroking his cock as he worked his fingers in and out of me, at one point I felt like his hands were everywhere and I could no longer control it, I told him to stop as he was going to make me cum but he told me I should and that I was going to make him cum, as soon as he told me that it was all I could think about was making him cum, so I worked my hand on his cock faster and harder as I began to feel my pussy explode with an orgasm that rocked my body and made me arch my back. Then I heard it, I heard him say that he was cumming, I looked at his cock, even though all my eyes wanted to do was roll into the back of my head as I rode my own orgasm but I looked and watched the streams of hot cum spurting out of his cock, again I wanted to wrap my lips around it and lick and suck him clean, I just watched.

It took me a minute to come back to my senses and begin to get dressed, I remember feeling a mix of emotions, satisfaction, nervous, worried that he would never speak to me again or that we wouldn’t be friends any more, one thing I knew for sure was that our friendship would never be the same again. We dressed, kissed then left as if nothing had happened.

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