Intro: This is a true story of the time I lost my anal virginity to my cousin. I didnt just do that though, it went on for a couple years and I have lots of stories about it to share as fap material. This is the first time it happened and i also type about how it led up to that. I also try and outline specific memories. I understand most people would be damaged by this. But I loved being my cousins butt slut. I never had a thing for incest specifically but this was one of these stranger times of my life. It even put me in rehab for a little while and got me a criminal record for prostitution! Enjoy!

My cousin Jimmy wasn’t too much older than me, I was 15 and he was 22 when this started. I remember before I really got to know him, hearing about how he was always in trouble. He started going to Juvi in 6th grade. I was kinda scared of him at first honestly because of what I had heard, and I tried to avoid him at holidays a bit only saying the formals. It didn’t help the fact I was shy either. He was living with our grandma, my dads mother, where I was also going to live. He was there because our grandma needed someone to live with her because of mobility issues and to help her take her meds, and he wasn’t able to find work, so it turned out that way. My parents sent me to live at grandmas because I wasn’t getting along with them at home and I wasn’t doing too well in school, and that was a huge deal for my mom being from Okinawa. My parents met when my white Irish-american dad was in the military and he brought my mom back here to the states, so she was a bit upset about why I was so bad in school. I was to start attending an alternative school near grandmas house. They thought the change in environment would help. I didn’t care moving to a new school because I didn’t have a lot of friends anyway. My mom drove me crazy too. My father seemed distant. I was a very depressed girl.

The first few weeks, maybe a month or so that I had I lived there, I started school and was doing ok. It was still hard to make friends because of how shy I was. I got to know Jimmy a bit better. He showed me grandmas medication schedule, she took it herself, but we just were there to remind her in case she forgot or help her if she falls. She was confined to the ground level of the house. Our rooms were on the basement level, which also had a kitchen and bathroom which I thought was awesome! It was like having a little apt. I started thinking that jimmy was pretty cool and i stopped being so intimidated by him. Besides ass fucking his cousin (me) in the past, and being a complete sociopath, He is ok and he took very good care of our grandma. Just makes lots of bad choices. Jimmy would get us alcohol, and I of course being young and dumb LOVED that! Also in this time he introduced me to meth, He said it also helped him keep the house clean and stay awake when needed. So I got a bit addicted to meth there for a bit. A BIT. It’s a hell of a drug. Lemme tell ya.
One night he and I were hanging out and drinking downstairs. Grandma was fast asleep and wasn’t waking up until mid to late AM. She wasn’t able to come downstairs anyway.
We were taking hits off the glass bulb and blowing it into the fan above the range, and he asked me, “Wanna do shotgun hits?”
“You mean, put your mouth on mine?”
“Yeah, why not? It will make the hit last longer”
I said jokingly “Haha, ok. Just don’t put your tongue in”
He just kinda laughed, took his hit, held it, and then walked over and put his mouth around mine and blew the hit into my lungs. Nothing creepy. We went back and forth. We talked a lot as usual. I remember him talking about it before, but he got on the subject of sex. I at the time had never had sex, so hearing about it was kinda interesting. He told me a few stories about some girls he had been with in high school and what they did together. I knew girls in school had sex, I just never had the opportunity myself. Plus I was one of those girls that was always scared of the “what if’s” like getitng pregnant and what not. The more he talked about it, the more i was intrigued and the more horny I was feeling. Even though I was horny, Becoming my cousin jimmy’s willing anal sex slave for the next 2 plus years was the furthest thing from my mind, as well as the thing that happened next.

The night kept going and the topic of sex kept coming up.
“Yeah, Showtime even has porn on at night, wanna see? Watch”
He turned on the TV across from the kitchen and sure enough there were girls with their boobs out washing a car. They were rubbing their bare tits on the car and getting soap everywhere, and they were outside. The thought of being nude outside turned me on. “Lets hit this some more.” Jimmy said.
We kept doing the shot gun hits back and forth while the porn with the tittie car wash was playing on. I remember feeling the rush and the hormones building up. I felt like when we were doing shotguns I could feel something in front of him on my leg for a second, so it didn’t register as a hard on, also due to my lack of experience at the time. I went to get my drink at the counter and i stood there watching the (now silly to me) soft core porn. I bent over to lean on the counter a little and I felt something run upside my ass crack and realized it was Jimmy rubbing my ass through my pants with his fingers. If I were a guy and had a dick, I would have been so hard at the feeling, I was so high and the images on the TV were like nothing i had seen, but everything in my understanding told me, that was wrong. He’s your cousin and here he is touching me? Incest. I was a little alarmed at first out of surprise.

“Is it ok if I just rub on your butt like this?” Meth made Jimmy horny I found out. It was hot. I liked it. I knew it was wrong.
“I don’t know if you should be rubbing my butt, Jimmy. We ARE related after all” We didn’t look it whatsoever.
Jimmy assured me that the only reason He wanted to touch me like this was because meth made his dick hard and he just wanted to make it go away.
“Ok, but just for a few minutes” I told him. I was enjoying it. Just confused.
So I let Jimmy rub my ass through my pants. He would rub his finger tips over my asshole. We were both really loaded on meth. His rubbing got a little harder and he even starting rubbing his dick on my butt through his pants.
Then he said, “Lets go hit some more under the range”
I was so turned on and high. I said ok! We went over and took a few hits, passing the glass, not really saying much. I looked at his pants and I could see his hard erection. It was a huge dick off to the left side of this pants. Back then he was pretty hot. maybe 5’9’’ he was in ok shape, had all his teeth. He had short dark blonde hair and greenish eyes, with a white backwards baseball cap he always wore. I thought his hat was fucking stupid. Made him look like a race car driving wannabe douche.
I remember the blank look in his face when he asked me “Can I rub your butt again, but this time can you pull off your pants?” Woah! I was a bit shocked by his candor. I was so drunk and high, and was now even higher and had so much energy and i was so horny. I didn’t say anything. I went with it. But I wasn’t sure about anything else.

I started unbuttoning my pants and pulled them down to expose my panties. I was bent over the counter, back with my drink. jimmy pulled my panties down with his fingers, exposing my ass. Showtime still playing in the back ground.
“Is this ok?” He started rubbing my ass again. His fingers were running over my butthole in my ass crack. Still anal sex with my cousin was the furthest thing from my mind.
“Yeah thats good” He rubbed me like that for what seemed like a while.
He finally asked me, “Can I rub my dick on it too?”
“Uh, I don’t know, would that make this more like sex?”
“No. I’m not gonna stick it in your pussy or anything like that. I only wanna rub my dick on your ass. Nothing else.” Is what he said.
“Well, ok. I guess if its not like real sex or anything, just rubbing is fine.”
Jimmys dick was huge. I felt it rubbing up and down on my ass crack before I actually saw it. It felt long and kinda thick. It was the first time I had any physical contact with a penis, so I didn’t know what to expect. Jimmy had something wet on his dick, I didn’t know at the time, but it was his pre cum, and it was making my ass a bit slippery. He rubbed his dick up and down my asshole and slapped it with his dick a few times. Fuck! I didn’t say anything. His rubbing got a lot faster for a while, and finally He grunted and I felt my ass crack get really wet when he did this. My pussy was on fucking fire. I was very turned on from how he slapped my butthole with his dick they way he did. Jimmy’s breathing was heavier.
“Are you ok?”
“Oh yeah, I’m fine” He had just busted his load on my naked asshole. I wasn’t so aware. He told me to hang on he would get a towel for the mess.
I cleaned up and things were ok. I was still horny after my pants were back on. I couldn’t stop thinking about what had happened for the next couple nights. I would touch myself to the thought.

jimmy assured me what we did wasn’t real sex because he did not put his dick in my pussy. He also showed me some passage in the bible that says how these maidens bent over for these soldiers, and basically gave them anal, so their purity would stay intact. So they would be virgins for marriage. He said that also meant for incest. So fucking in the ass would not only keep me from getting pregnant, keep my virginity and it would be ok because putting your dick in an ass isn’t really sex in gods eyes, and that modernization had turned into that and blah blah bullshit. I was really a dumb little 15 year old listening to someone cooler and older who bought me beer and drugs, I wasn’t nor am I now INTO incest, but I had fun. I wasn’t “in love” with jimmy. I just liked to hang out, do meth and loved letting him fuck me in the ass. I was smart enough to know it wasn’t something you tell all your friends and family, duh.
“Isn’t that something that gay men do?” was one question I had.
“It’s not gay if it’s a girl!” Jimmy insisted. I had some confusions about it at first but I knew better of all this pretty quick.

I was down stairs and grandma had been in bed for a few hours. I was in my room laying in bed half asleep with my TV on. Jimmy had been gone all day. He came home that night so loaded. My bedroom door opened up and there was Jimmy.
“Hey, Mai.You wanna come get high?” He rhymed into my room. I knew it would wake me up. So i got up and followed jimmy into his room. I’m glad I did. When we got in there I sat down on his bed. His room was trashed. There was just SHIT everywhere. His desk was the only thing with enough room to roll cigarettes and set things down on. I asked him how his day had went and he told me he had been over at his friends and had got some meth. He and i were talking and passing it to each other for a bit. He brought up the subject of the other night. And asked me if he could do it again? I got insta-wet. I didn’t want him to know how much I had actually enjoyed it. If he weren’t my cousin it would have been different. He was actually planning on meeting up with someone later that night to get some more meth, and I was really loaded now, so I said.
“uh, okay sure.” I was wearing my long night gown and had only gotten out of bed, so I had nothing on under it except my panties.

I never got very tall, and I am still only about 110- 120 lbs at 28 and I’ve never had much for boobs, sadly. I look like a half asian girl with white skin and reddish brown hair, I haven’t aged much, thank god. I lifted my gown to show Jimmy my ass. He grabbed the side of my ass and started squeezing and rubbing it. jimmy said “Get on your hands and knees” I did what jimmy told me to do. I was so horny all over again, knowing he would slap my asshole with his dick. I was on my hands and knees on Jimmys bed. I could hear him unzipping his pants behind me. My clit had to have been so swollen. I also remember hearing jimmy open something up like a bottle, and heard him doing something. My ass up in the air I then felt Jimmys huge long dick rubbing up and down on my butthole again. This time he had some vaseline apparently because it was much more slippery than last time. At the time I wasn’t too informed about these uses for vaseline. Jimmy was grabbing his dick and spanking my butthole with it. It felt fucking amazing. Jimmy finally said, “Can I stick it in your ass?”
I was so horny, I didn’t have any idea this would hurt so much. If I had seen how huge his dick was at the time I would have said no. “Uuuhhh, I dunno” Was all I could say.
“Why don’t we just give it a try? I know you’ll like it.”
“I just don’t know.” Was what I said. “And I am not sure I should let you put your dick in my butt because you’re my cousin.”
“I’m not gonna say anything to anyone. It will be a secret”
“Ok I guess” I hesitated. Thats all jimmy needed to hear.

Jimmy greased up his dick with more vaseline. Then he put the tip of his dick head on my asshole, and poked. My anal rim screamed at me. Jimmys dick was HUGE, but it was going in my ass now, there wasn’t any going back when a guy on meth has the ok to anally sodomize you. I felt the head pop in and my asshole rim was hugging the ring between his shaft and helmet. I put my head in his pillows and whimpered. They stunk like armpits and man sweat, I’ll never forget. Jimmy was inching his way into my tight virgin butthole. I was screaming into his pillows.
“Scream as loud as you need to.” He took his dick back out and spanked my asshole with it. My asshole rim hurt so bad. But My pussy was loving it. I was so wet. Jimmy touched my wet pussy and flicked my clit and used my pussy juice to coat my anal rim. Things wouldn’t be the same anymore after this. I was crying tears out of pain. Even though it hurt so much, I wanted to keep going. Before I could even finish my thoughts he popped his dick back in to my butthole. This time it went much further and I felt the width and length of his dick. Massive. Again I was screaming and now he was starting to hump.
Everytime his dick would hump, my asshole would burn and my insides felt full. I thought I was going to poop all over him, but I didn’t for my first anal. I did later poop on him once when he was in my ass, but he wasn’t the type to care as long as there was a shower.
“Nice tight fuckin asshole” he kept saying in a primal whisper, it was my first time having a man talk filthy to me, and it made me even hornier. I still wasn’t fully in the know about sex but this felt really painful.
He started to pull it out and put it back in all the way, again I still haven’t seen his actual dick except through his pants at this point. But it was feeling ridiculously big. He started going a little faster. I still had tears in my eyes and was sure I was never going to do this again, still screaming into the pillows while he humped my asshole. This seemed to go on for sometime, or maybe it was made to feel like a long time because of the pain. As jimmy fucked my butt his speed increased and after a while it stopped hurting so much. When I finally got used to being butt fucked, I let myself go and started enjoying the sensation of a pole going in and out of my tight anal rim. It was a good thing grandma was losing her hearing because I was loud. Jimmy was getting crazy fast. He was now humping my asshole even faster. All it may have sounded like in that room was my crying and him saying “YYEAAAAHHH… YEEEAAHHHH…” I was enjoying it so much. Finally he humped my asshole really fast for a few more minutes and then he moaned really loud. Blowing his load into my ass. I remember feeling his huge dick pulsating in my ass. Then it slid out as he backed off.

Jimmy sighed in relief and asked if i was ok. I told him I was fine. I was confused a little and my ass really hurt. I saw his dick when I turned around for my gown and oh my god, I couldn’t believe THAT had been up my tiny asshole. It sure felt like it had. It was like a monster dick. Without saying anything I went into the bathroom and sat on the toilet and let all the stuff flow out, thinking I was going to poop a lot. I just saw all my cousins semen mixed with some of my blood in the toilet. I had a weird feeling about letting my cousin do that to me, but I fucking loved it. Even though it hurt a lot. I cleaned up and went back to his room to smoke more. Jimmy admitted he had a thing for anal sex and a lot of girls would not do it for him. But he wouldn’t have to worry about that anymore while I was staying there.
Later jimmy left to go out and meet his buddies and pick up his stuff. So now I was addicted to meth and taking my cousins dick in the ass. We had lots of butt sex after this incident and that led to him pimping me to his friends for our meth sometimes.

And so that is the beginning of becoming my cousin Jimmy’s bad girl butt sex slave. This is only the story of how I lost my anal virginity to my cousin. I have many more to tell. But I’m tired so I’ll have to save it for next week. I know this sounds terrible but I don’t think you came here to read above my path to being sober. So I’m just going to share about all the bad girl stuff.

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