I’m grinding my teeth. Can’t seem to kick that habit. Either I shake my leg until my whole body vibrates or I grind my teeth. The leg shaking annoys other people. So I grind my teeth. I only do it when I am anxious. To be fair, I am anxious a lot. Today I am the most anxious. I am waiting for something that I have been waiting for for 3 months, more probably. I dream about it most nights. I day dream about it most days. My eyes are leveled on the point where the dirt road in front of me meets the tar high way. It is crazy hot. Stale air oozes between the trees. The humidity is tangible. The black flies flit around my forehead dodging beads of sweat to suck on the blood around my neck and ears. Their vicious bites cannot distract me from my gaze. I have been waiting for 3 months. It’s been a few hours sitting here. My water bottle is long since empty and I have to pee really badly. I keep watching the spot, it has been 3 months after all.

A silver car, right indicator on pulls up off the highway into the drive. It’s grill gets larger as my heart beats faster. It’s not her. Disappointed I plop down on my grassy seat. Time seems to flow backwards, every time I check my watch it seems like it says a number that is previous to the last number. Maybe I am just delirious, that’s believable. It’s been a long couple of months, working 14 hour days most of the time. Sending my body to a physical extreme on many occasions. Not eating in any way healthily. Dealing with copious amounts of stressful situations and relationships. All the while not having the warm arms to hold me, to tell me it’s okay and I am probably overreacting. I get distracted by the thoughts of how much I miss her that I almost don’t notice the silver sedan coasting up the drive. It definitely is her.

I see her smile first, the afternoon sun pours through her windshield illuminating her mouth while the visor blocks off her blue eyes. She has a gorgeous smile. It never fails to make me feel better. This time I am fucking ecstatic. My heart is racing to the point of arrest. She pulls up beside me. Giddy I race around to the driver side and throw open the door. She gets stuck in her seat belt trying to race out the seat. So many reasons why I love her. Even the clumsiness. I give her some space so she can jump out. Jump out she does. Like a flying koala bear she lunges at me wrapping all of her limbs around me. Winded, I stagger back a few feet, tottering over and falling on my ass with a little ball of blonde hair and love straddling me. Within seconds our tongues are locked in the endless war for control over each others’ mouth. No one ever wins the war, we just take breaks. Her hands are in my hair, eyes closed legs straddling my pelvis. My hands are on her back, and her sides, and her butt. Okay my hands are roaming around, just trying to touch as much of her as possible.

After a few minutes of this the giddiness wears off and she sits up, looking me in the eye with that smile. My heart melts. We talk for a little, discussing her drive and all sorts of other things. We tell each other that we love each other, over and over again. It’s true every time. Little ants crawling over my chest bear witness to something special. We tell each other how happy we are to see each other, even though anyone witnessing the situation would know that with certainty. Eventually we get up from the ground. Gathering some debris that fell from the car seat. I let her sit in the seat and close her door for her. I want her to know that I respect her. She leans over the seat and unlocks and opens my door. She understands I respect her but also knows she doesn’t need me, and I respect that. I hop in, the car is air conditioned. The cool air feels like ice on my skin. Small talk takes us all the way through the 2 minute drive to the office.

My boss rolls up, like an emo jelly bean plopped on her ATV. Her dark thick rimmed glasses are silhouetted by straight black hair. She smiles her welcome to camp smile. Letting us know that we are both welcome here. She suggests that we go explore the grounds with a wink, and a knowing smile. We have a few hours to kill. Rose drives off and leaves us two alone again. I take her hand with shit eating grins plastered on our faces. I lead her slowly down the white sand path. Our arms and legs swinging opposite to each other, hands together a pendulum between us. She is humming to herself. One of the things I love most is how we are able to be silent together. It’s not awkward, it’s just how it is. She’s tired from a very long drive. 17 hours is no joke. It must be nice to stretch her legs. She presses her body up against mine, putting her arm around my back and waist. My hand reaches up and sits on her shoulder, pulling her closer to me. We walk past a line of trees, the lake opening out in front of us. The swim tower is floating like a large white lifeguard chair, listing slightly from age. Rows of benches spread out in front of us in a semi-circle. The awkward wooden steps leading down to the beach are sun bleached and out of place. We take a seat on the 3rd row of benches, watching afternoon shift over the placid lake. Sweat makes my shirt cling to my skin in an uncomfortable way. I look down at her, still snuggled into my arm. Her hair is soft and wavy. Her skin is soft and tan. Her shirt also clings to her skin. I can see her nipples outlined through her shirt. I look down her shirt unashamed.

She looks up at me with gorgeous blue eyes. We hold each others gaze for a few seconds, before leaning into each other and locking lips. Tongues probing each others mouth, feeling teeth and tongue and mouth alike. It starts out slow, as they do, but blood gets to body parts that fuel desire. Gradually the kissing gets more intense, more passionate. My had crawls down from her shoulder into her shirt. A handful of soft flesh become my focus. I knead it gently with my hands. Feeling the nipples harden and elongate underneath my palms as I paw at her breasts. I tweak her nipples gently, rolling them between my finger and thumb. She sucks gently, sensually on my tongue. Her hand is sneaking up my pants to my rapidly hardening cock. Suddenly I am very aware of the fact that we are out in the open. With the sun and the trees as our witness. We break off the kiss. My hand doesn’t leave her breast. Hers stays on my thigh. Her head rests on my shoulder as we watch the waves blown across the water by the wind. Shimmering like the scales of a fish in the heat of the afternoon. I want to take her somewhere else.

Together we get up, walking down the path, talking about the drive and how it went. We walk into the forest, the shade of the trees offering protection from the trees. The winding path, gnarled with roots which make it hard for a clumsy person, eventually leads out to a dock that is out of the way enough that no one will see us there. I take a few life jackets and fashion a nest from them on the dock. Together we lay down and resume the exploration of each others bodies. Her hands wrapped around my back squeezing my butt while my lips kiss down the side of her face to her neck. Eager to wrap them around her nipples. She pushes me down, straddling me. Her beautiful smile, as sexy to me as the first time we fucked, beams down as she lifts up her shirt. Her little boobs with perfect nipples beckon to me, she leans down and kisses my earlobes with little sucking sounds that drive me wild. Her kisses reach my neck and down my chest. She sits me up and removes my t-shirt. Our naked torsos press together, tongues resume their battle. My hands are roaming up and down her toned legs. I love her body, she’s a rocket. She pushes me back down, kissing her way once again down my chest. Cheek, ears, neck, collarbone, pectorals, sides, stomach, crotch finally to my shorts. She looks up at me as she pulls my shorts and under pants off. They are trapped under my body and it takes some work. She is a champion and never breaks eye contact. My penis almost hits her in the chin as it comes out of my pants. Down her lips go, kissing the skin around the base. She licks up one side, then back down the other. She takes one testicle into her mouth. She loves to play with my balls. Finally she puts her mouth over the head and starts to suck.

The heat and the moisture are phenomenal. Her mouth feels fucking fantastic. She does her best to look up every once in a while. I close my eyes and tilt my head back on the life jackets to enjoy the feeling. My hand goes down into her hair knotting my fingers in her lovely locks. She does her best to make me feel good. And good is how it feels. It is sloppy, she constantly makes spit. I can’t feel her teeth at all, only the soft of her tongue and lips and the gentle ribs of the roof of her mouth. I can see she is working on getting the whole thing inside her mouth. My cock gets a little harder in her mouth knowing that is her goal. She is a champion and the increase in size just makes it more of a challenge for her which she enjoys. She chokes a little bit, but manages to get it all the way down. My cock is very slobbery and her eyes are a little teary, but I am happy, and that is why I love her. I pull her up to my face, kissing her cheeks and whispering sweet words into her ears. I do love her so much. My right hand starts working at her pants, unbuttoning them and removing them. Side by side we lie. Our clothes dangerously close to falling in the water, but our concentration and existence united in intimacy. Nothing else exists except for each others bodies and their needs. I lift her leg up and over my side, rubbing my penis along her slit. She is wet, very wet. Slowly I push myself into her, it’s a strange angle, but we make it work.

She closes her eyes as I start to slowly push into her. I want to be fully inside her. I go as far as I can go. When I run out of penis I stop, and kiss her. Then slowly we start grinding against each other. Building a rhythm as we join each other outside of time. My hands are ever exploring, running up and down her sides massaging her muscles. Wrapping in her hair, rubbing her head. Sometimes they run down to her arms and intertwine with her fingers. We hold hands while we make love. She gets bored of slow fucking pushing me back down onto my back she hops up and impales herself on me, leaning over on top of me she starts to ride me. She’d make a sexy cowgirl. I put my hands on her ass as she fucks me. Kneading and rubbing it. Such a lovely ass. I can’t wait until I get to wake up in the morning pressed up against her ass. Her tits stare me in the face as she bounces up and down. I pull her to me and put her nipple in my mouth. Sucking on it, rolling it in my tongue, nibbling it occasionally.

Something primal raises it’s head. I lift her bodily off of me. Flipping around so she is under me. I spread her legs forcefully. Looking in her eyes I see the same fire that is consuming me. Without tenderness I shove my cock into her. She’s soaking, it doesn’t hurt. All the way down I go. I am lying above her in the push up position. My arms are locked out while I take myself all the way in and out of her. I love looking at her face as I fuck her. She closes her eyes, I think she thinks its rude to make eye contact when you fuck. I agree, sometimes it’s awkward, although I am not currently myself. I am a taken by desire for this gorgeous woman. I push all the way down until our pelvic bones are grinding against each other. She starts breathing heavy as her clit is stimulated by the friction. I know I won’t get her to come, but I also know she is enjoying herself and that is what I want. I can feel pressure rise inside me, my stomach and ass begin to clench as I spurt cum into her. Four times my body spasms. My abs are cramping. She giggles and kisses me. I try to move down her body to start eating her out but she stops me. She’s satisfied knowing I am satisfied. And there is always later. I love her so much.

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