Raising Little Tabby Jack
Introduction:
This is the story of a rape and snuff victim who survived.
Sheâd been catatonic from screaming and crying for hours when the SWAT unit had charged into her home and rescued her from the three home invaders who had brutally murdered her father and mother. It came out as they were interrogated they had particularly enjoyed raping the pretty thirteen-year old as her mother was forced to watch. Both she and her mother had been strangled and raped repeatedly. A concerned neighbor with acute hearing had thankfully detected Tabbyâs shrill screams of terror and reported them. Unfortunately, her mother had died from the horrible treatment before the police arrived
Thatâs where I come into the story. Iâm Jack Wilson. The police had found the papers in my best friendâs desk assigning me power of attorney over the coupleâs concerns and called me. Iâd been shocked and enraged to hear of the murders, and dropped everything and somehow managed to avoid being arrested for speeding as I rushed to my Goddaughterâs side!
The hospital room door opened and a nurse showed me in. The policewoman had to physically restrain Tabby from leaping from the bed and running to me! âTabitha,â the woman spoke,âbe careful, youâll rip out your I.V.â I quickly walked to the other side of the hospital bed and picked Tabby up, she clung tightly to me and sobbed.
Tears of rage, loss, and sorrow for her streamed down my own face and fell on her gown as I held the young teen, all that remained of my two best friends. The nurse told me, âWeâve put her on enough sedatives to knock out a horse, but sheâs refused to give in to it. She must have incredible willpower!â
âSheâs been in survival mode. Sheâll rest with me here, she trusts me to protect her,â I told the nurse. Rest she did for the next two days, as I sat in a chair and held her in my arms. I spent most of those long hours adoring her beautiful face and stroking her long auburn hair as she so loved for me to do. One of the cutest tricks sheâd learned as a toddler was to climb into my lap, meow, and beg me, âPet the Tabby, Jack!â Thinking of the torture sheâd gone through and the bruises on her slender neck made my eyes stream bitter tears. I so wished Iâd been beside her dad in his final fight for their lives as Iâd been with him in so many fights!
I only put her back in her bed when I went to the restroom or showered, and when the doctors and nurses examined her or bathed her. The nurses were very kind in bringing meals to me. They knew the whole story now, and I suppose they knew I couldnât bear to leave her side to go to the cafeteria. The murders had made the front pages of the papers and the news channels all over the country, âPolice Officer and Wife brutally slain!â The doctors and nurses seemed to accept my presence as part of her therapy treatment.
I left her room only once in those first two days to go to my truck for the fresh clothes and my shaving kit I had there. I made one of the nurses promise to stay by her side while I rushed to and from the truck. Tabby was just waking up when I walked back into the room and she desperately reached for me. I put my bag down, cradled her in my arms, and sat back down in my chair beside her bed. She kissed my cheek, hugged me, and went back to sleep, feeling safe in my arms.
On the third day they reduced her sedation. I talked reassuringly to her as she awoke. I asked her if she had any relatives or other friends she was close to she wanted to see, or might want to visit or stay with, and she told me there was only me. She cried for a long while then as I held her close. She needed this time to grieve her terrible losses, as did I.
Her father, Bob Moore, had been my best friend since boot camp years ago. Weâd helped liberate Kuwait in the same unit and did one H.A.L.O. (High Altitude Low Open) night jump behind the lines on a mission into Iraq. We were closer than most brothers. After Iâd been blown damned near to hell by a land mine another troop had been killed by stepping on, he had his wife visit me in the hospital stateside until he got home and could take over most of the bedside vigils. He had picked up on his civilian job as a police officer when he returned, and often visited me in uniform before or after a shift.
Theyâd insisted I move in with them when I was discharged from the military hospital, so Iâd have a home to go to, then each had assisted me to and from my rehabilitation appointments until I could drive again. When the baby came along the proud couple had done me the great honor of naming me her Godfather, and giving her the middle name Jackie.
I had been given a full disability retirement from the military, due to various permanent problems, both physical and mental. I bought my own place so Bob and his wife would have their privacy again and a nursery room for the baby, but weâd visited at least weekly ever since. I was invited to every poker game, fishing trip, vacation, birthday, and anniversary party.
Tabby Jack had become my best buddy too, to the point of her insisting I was the only person she would allow to babysit her whenever it was needed. Have I mentioned she was a strong willed child? She would beg her mom and dad to let her spend nights or weekends playing at my house. We played ball, went swimming, camped out (usually in my yard) and went fishing. I always insisted she put the icky bait on my hook and hers, but it never seemed to work out that way. She had been the darling daughter I would never have, and now it appeared she was mine to finish raising for the worst possible reasons.
She told me she was hungry and I buzzed for a nurse to see if she was allowed anything to eat yet. I spoon-fed her some broth for her first meal of her hospital stay. Theyâd been feeding her intravenuously. She didnât say much as I fed her. Tabby seemed to enjoy the warm broth, and the familiar closeness of my feeding it to her as Iâd often done when she was younger. It did my own low spirits a world of good being able to give the sweet child some nourishment. Her doctors sent a psychiatrist in to examine her. He introduced himself to us as Dr. Stevens and shook my hand. He extended his hand toward Tabby. She shrieked and threw her arms around my neck, clinging tightly to me and shivering from fear as I comforted her!
The doctor shook his head in sympathy, then pulled up a chair. I could tell from the resigned look on his face, her recovery would take a long, long time. Dr. Stevens spoke calmly and gently to Tabby, but she refused to respond to him. âWill she talk to you, Mr. Wilson?â He asked. âCall me Jack, Doctor,â I told him, âYes, sheâll talk to me, wonât you, Tabby Jack?â
âYes,â came her barely audible reply. âYou need to talk to the doctor, Sweetheart,â I told her in a soothing voice, âheâs here to help you learn to deal with this tragedy.â She whispered and sobbed, âIâm too scared to, Jack! Please donât let him hurt me!â Tears were running from my own eyes again and mixed with hers as I kissed her tears away. I promised her, âNobody is ever going to hurt you again, Tabby Jack, I wonât let them!â
Dr. Stevens stood up and spoke to me. âIâll refer her case to one of my women colleagues, Jack, sheâll be in either later today or early tomorrow. Perhaps that will help. You both have my sincere sympathy. Iâll send in her medical doctor. He needs to speak with you, too.â
Dr. Williams came in then, and Tabbyâs reaction to him was very much the same as her reaction to Dr. Stevens had been. She was terrified of him! Dr. Williams had examined her several times while she was heavily sedated, but she didnât want to be in the same room with him now! I told her, âSweetheart, let me put you on your bed, then Iâll talk to the doctor.â She made it plain in no uncertain terms; she didnât like that idea either!
âThis is all very irregular, Mr. Wilson,â the doctor said, âbut to me my patientâs welfare comes first, and it seems youâre the only person, or at least the only man, who doesnât frighten her. The police officers left a copy of your power of attorney signed by her parents and notarized, so we can consider you her legal guardian. I spoke to Dr. Stevens and any further medical treatment I tried to give her at this point would likely only increase her mental trauma. She suffered no permanent physical damage, she is not and wonât be pregnant, and the court ordered tests on the suspects are in, they had nothing infectious. Iâve put her on a solid diet, and prescribed something for anxiety to help ease her pain. As soon as sheâs had a solid bowel movement you will be free to take her home and begin her rehabilitation.â
I was relieved my worries about her being pregnant, or contracting a serious disease were over. Now I had to deal with a heart broken orphaned child whoâd watched her father killed, her mother raped and snuffed, while she was raped and strangled herself. She was also deathly and justifiably terrified of at least half the human race! I knew I was buying into a hell of a fight. I vowed to myself Iâd care for my namesake. âThank you, Doctor. Iâll be at her side for the rest of my days or as long as she needs me, whichever comes first.â
âYou really mean that, Jack?â Tabby stirred enough to ask me. I truthfully told her, âYes, Darling, I do, and you know Iâve never lied to you. I adore you, you are the most important person in my life.â This seemed to reassure her and she drifted off to sleep again. I would never even hope to fill that enormous void in her life her loving mom and dad had left, but at least she still had her buddy Jack who had always been there for her.
I knew I would have to maintain a delicate balance between protecting Tabby and over protecting her, but I figured it was way too soon to worry about that. She was barely out of survival mode and needed all the reassurance and love I could give her.
Our next visitor was John Kelly, the President of Bobâs police union. He sat several feet away after he realized his presence frightened Tabby. âShe doesnât remember me,â he told me, âbut her dad was my patrol partner for a number of years, including when she was born, and I remember him talking about you and the war.â
âYes, thank you. He was a great guy, and the best friend Iâve ever had. Iâm sure you know he was one hella good backup in a firefight. His wife was every bit my friend as he was.â Tabby whimpered at mention of her parents, but this needed to be said.
John pulled a check and a business card from his wallet. âHereâs a check from our union for $50,000 for Tabbyâs immediate expenses made out to you and my card. I know Bob and his wife chose you to represent their family, and itâs obvious to everyone you have the childâs best interests at heart. There will be other funds raised soon for her education expenses and benefits from our retirement fund. Should you ever decide to look further into this case yourself, or if she needs something give me a call.â
My eyes must have shown this savvy veteran police officer Iâd picked up on his hint about my intentions of looking into the murders because he winked at me before leaving. He knew Iâd be calling him soon! Could this have been a contract killing instead of a random home invasion? I silently made a vow to my dear friendâs memories Iâd know one way or another before I let the matter rest!
Tabbyâs next meal was delivered, and I noticed the kind nurses had ordered one for me too. I asked her whether she could manage to feed herself this time, and she pouted for a moment, then broke down in deep wracking sobs. âI want to be a little girl again, Jack,â she cried, âbeing a grown up hurts too much!â If you donât think her words hit me where it hurts, youâre mistaken. I held her to me for several minutes to calm us both, then told her, âlâll feed the Tabby Jack, then, before her dinner gets cold.â The dear child rewarded me with a tentative smile I wouldnât have traded for millions!
The cafeteria had sent up grilled chicken breast, mashed potatoes with gravy, and green beans. Tabby approved of and gladly ate everything I fed her until I offered her a couple of the green beans. Her full lips stayed tightly shut until I had a flashback to feeding her liver and spinach in her junior baby foods. I did the airplane thing with the fork. I made the engine noises, and zoomed the fork around. âThe airplaneâs coming in for a landing, right into baby Tabbyâs mouth!â She laughed in delight, and I poked the beans in!
She hugged me as she chewed the beans.âNobody but you would have remembered that, Jack, thank you!â Hell, I was so thankful I could still amuse her. Another few minutes of my feeding her and she told me she was stuffed. I was satisfied sheâd eaten enough for the present. After the previous two days of IV feeding her stomach had probably begun to shrink. Tabby decided then, it was time for her to return the favor and feed me. She got more food on my face and shirt than in my mouth, but I sure wasnât going to deny her a few moments of play!
I told her then, âSweetheart, how about if I put you down to rest in your bed while I clean myself up?â That idea went over like a lead baloon! She cried, she wailed, she made gagging sounds and I thought sheâd lose her dinner. âJack, please hold me! Theyâll kill me if you donât protect me!â How could I argue with that? She had seen her protector, the strongest man sheâd ever known, her dad, the man with the badge and gun, murdered in front of her. How could I ever convince this sweet child she was safe again?
My own paranoia I had been fighting for years kicked in. Did I really know there wasnât somebody out there paid to finish the job those other three had started? Added to that, it had just ocurred to me she was the only live witness to some hideous crimes.
This child was dearer to me than my own life. One mistake on my part might see her murdered. I thought rationally for a moment. I should call Bobâs union president John Kelly and tell him Tabby needed to be with someone who could protect her. My mind reeled, John Kelly was rational and sane, just like Tabbyâs dad Bob had been. There had been nothing either rational or sane about this tragedy. Bob had been killed by those crazy bastards, and left his wife and precious child to amuse the insane!
People all over the country knew where Tabby was. I decided at that moment to make a move. âTabby, weâre leaving here now. You and I are going to take it on the lam and hide until we have a chance to sort things out.â Her eyes brightened up at that! She gave me her best Faye Dunaway look. I only recognized it because Iâd seen it so many times before. Tabby loved all the old movies and we had sat and watched âBonnie and Clydeâ every time she came to my house since she was an infant because she loves it. Have I mentioned I spoil her? She put her hand on one little hip, and gave me her saucy look. âLetâs do it, Clyde!â
âOkay, Bonnie, Iâll get you unhooked from that IV.â I got a roll of tissue from the restroom and rolled up a couple of feet of it. âThis may pinch a little, Bonnie,âI told her, âbut you got some moxie.â I was looking into her eyes, and she didnât even wince when I held the tissue to her arm and slid the IV needle out. I held pressure on her arm for a few minutes, then told her, âTry not to scratch the itch on that spot for a little while, Bonnie.â
I rummaged in my bag Iâd brought from the truck and found an XXL tie dyed T-shirt I thought might be long enough to conceal her little bare butt. You know how those hospital gowns are, and the little darling had been carried to the hospital naked under a blanket with three sadistic rapists cum running out of her body. âStick âem up!â I ordered her. The shirt slid down over her upraised arms and head, and yes, it reached well below her butt. âOkay, Bonnie, all you need is a cigar, a beret, and a Tommy Gun, and youâll be perfectly disguised!â That brought a beautiful smile to my gun mollâs face!
We almost made it off the floor unseen. One nurse was just coming back from a room, and asked me, âSir, has she been checked out?â I told her, âNo, she hasnât, but the doctor said the only thing stopping him from discharging her was a solid bowel movement, and we decided we could owe him one or mail it in and she could go home and sleep in her own bed at my house. Iâll buy her a stool softener if she needs it.â âBonnieâ giggled at that! The nurse consulted her chart, then said, âYouâre right, sir, sign here, please.â I scribbled the name âClyde Barrowâ on the dotted line, stuck a copy in my jeans, and we continued our escape!
I was doing my best to find a side exit, but we must have gotten turned around, because the hospital exit we took had three television satellite transmission vans very close to it. The reporters came alive as we exited the hospital. I was holding Tabbyâs hand, and I held her behind me. I will admit I was feeling very protective of her, very frustrated I had not been there to save her from the rape and torture sheâd endured, and very pissed off!
I must have growled at the reporters, unless they added that to the tapes later. I put a big hand out and pointed it in the face of each reporter. I growled, âThis baby girl has been hurt enough, and sheâs with me now. Iâm not a nice guy like my Brother was, stay out of her face!â They must have gotten the message I was upset, because they began retreating!
I picked Tabby up in my arms, and headed towards my truck. The little imp had only one comment to make. âKing Kong carrying Faye Raye! Are we going to climb a skyscraper, Jack?â Tabby sure knows how to crack me up, as well as push my buttons! I laughed as I asked her, âIâm sorry, darling, did you have anything to say to the networks?â She said, âMaybe.â I put her down, turned around, and we walked back to the network vans, hand in hand.
She led me up to the reporters. Thankfully they were all women. âYou will have to excuse Jack,â she told them,â or not.â Her shoulders shrugged. âHe is very protective of me. Both our worlds have been destroyed and our love for each other is all we have left. We appreciate everyoneâs concern.â The tears started then and she turned around and reached up to me, and I picked her up. I carried her to our escape truck with her arms clenched tightly around my neck.
I put her in the truck seat and she cuddled up to me. I kissed her cheek, hugged her, and told her, âThat was a very mature statement you made, Darling. Much more so than mine.â She laughed, and said, âThat wasnât me talking, Jack, that was Bonnie!â
We got a pleasant surprise when we pulled up to the parking lot booth. I handed the man the ticket Iâd grabbed on the way in three days before. He said, âI saw your disabled veteran tags, and I just saw you both on my television. You two have paid your way already.â He tore the ticket in two. Tabby and I both thanked him, he raised the barrier, and I drove out.
My next stop was a stash Iâd made several years ago of some weapons and ammo. No, I wonât describe the location or the weapons, it suffices to say the stash was still intact and the weather hadnât affected anything. I have mentioned I am paranoid, havenât I? I felt much more at ease with the weapons in my possession. I also changed the plates on my truck there. I had been maintaining the registration on a title Iâd bought from a junk dealer several years before, so they were perfectly legal, except for not belonging to this particular truck.
Tabby had remained mostly silent and still, except for being right at my side during my retrieval of the weapons. I asked her, âSweetheart, do you need us to find a restroom for you? Are you hungry or thirsty?â She just snuggled a little closer to me. Okay, I figured Iâd find us a place to stay for the night. When I got out at the motel Tabby was right behind me. I turned to her and pulled the collar of the shirt she was wearing up to cover the bruises on her neck. She snapped to what I was doing and held it up. I registered and paid with John Hancockâs driverâs license and credit card. I paid for double occupancy and asked fot two beds, though I didnât expect Tabby would be that far away from me.
She wasnât. I carried enough firearms into the room to start a small war and cautioned her, âDonât touch the firearms, Love, your training on them begins tomorrow.â She had been raised around her dadâs weapons, but sheâd been told strictly hands off. Iâd asked Bob every few months for permission to train her to shoot. Heâd always refused saying she was still a baby.
She was still a baby, but now she was a baby who had been repeatedly raped in every body orifice by three men and strangled within an inch of her life. She was my responsibility now and Iâd teach her how to shoot and provide her with weapons to protect herself from the crazies. I kicked my shoes off, shucked my shirt and went under the covers. Tabby snuggled up to me and laid her head on my bare shoulder. âSleep well, Sugars,â I told her, and kissed her forehead. I saw a wisp of a smile at the corners of her mouth, then we both nodded off.
I hadnât realized how exhausted Iâd been from sitting in that hospital chair holding Tabby for days until I woke up to see sunlight streaming into the window of the motel. I turned to her and saw she was awake and looking at me. I hugged her to me, kissed her forehead and asked her, âHow are you feeling today, Miss Moore?â
She stretched, yawned, and told me, âIâm happy to be alive and in your arms, Jack, but I am hungry!â That sounded like something I could relate to after three days of hospital food. I went to my bag and took out some clothes. âGive me a few minutes to shower, Sweetheart, and weâll find you something to eat, then buy you some clothes.â I headed for the shower, taking a pistol with me..
I was dropping my britches when Tabby came into the bathroom. âFine guard you are, Clyde,â she told me, âSomething could get me out there.â I stepped into the shower and was adjusting the water and anticipating her next argument when she stepped in beside me. I greeted her warmly, âHello Miss Moore. Yes, I remember I used to wash your little butt, but you were three or four years old the last time.â I decided to show her I had will power, too. I lathered up a wash cloth and began scrubbing her from head to toe, front and back. I held tight to a mental picture of her the last time I had bathed her. I scrubbed the little darling all over, shampooed her, and rinsed her thoroughly. I kissed her cheek, and patted her pretty butt, then I moved her out of the shower, âDry off, my Love,â I told her, âIâll be out in a minute.â
Iâm proud to say I maintained my dignity the entire time, but I knew she wouldnât let me off the hook that easily! She demanded, âHow did you do that, Jack?â I thought for a moment how to answer her, then I had it.
âThis is the Soldierâs Creed:â I chanted,
âI am an American Soldier.
I am a Warrior and a member of a team.
I serve the people of the United States and live the Army Values.
I will always place the mission first.
I will never accept defeat.
I will never quit.
I will never leave a fallen comrade.
I am disciplined, physically and mentally tough, trained and proficient in my warrior tasks and drills.
I always maintain my arms, my equipment and myself.
I am an expert and I am a professional.
I stand ready to deploy, engage, and destroy the enemies of the
United States of America in close combat.
I am a guardian of freedom and the American way of life.
I am an American Soldier.â
Tabby Jack stomped out of the bathroom and slammed the door behind her!
This may be contued if there is any interest in the story.